Strike

Strike

ok.

for a short moment, i was kind of distracted by love once again. but today. i dunno. i think i suddenly snapped out of it.

whether its good or bad, i dunno. i often tell myself that love is something that clouds the mind. its pretty true. logic becomes second to emotion. sometimes that can lead to poor decisions.

i got out of the 'phase' when i felt that we were not compatible. there were just some stuff...that i think i just cant accept and feel comfortable with.

but then again, i think im thinking too much as usual.

dammit. go with the flow. go with flow. be natural. be natural. >_<

how come im changing my mind so fast out of nothing. its quite unbecoming of me.

i dont want my head to become my demise. again.

p.s.: dont be too quick to be sure of me.

Activity

Activity

so.

i havent updated in some time.

compared to some past posts, the time in between each update is much longer. a month each update sometimes.

but suddenly i feel like the last time ive updated is getting so long. like my blog is getting stale.

this is probrably cos of so much blog activity im experiencing now. not necessarily talking about my blog.

anyways.

life is so hectic now. assignments, projects, deadlines...

i believe i still have time to relax. in fact i sometimes just sit down and slack a little. but slacking is not a fun thing. im onli slacking cos work is so tiring. im not playing cos im too haunted by my conscience. im not sleeping cos i think i should work. relaxing has now become a stressful thing. heh.

another thing.

i no longer feel devoid of meaning anymore. i find that...theres stuff to look forward to now...either that, or i no longer have time to care about all that, but to just keep going onwards. haha. i doubt my life has become SO miserable. so i believe its cos of the people around me, and the work that spurs me on, rather then dragging my soul down. true...i hate all this work. its like a flood of activity thats drowning me. but this rush gets me alive. to get on my feet and move. and whats more, there are people there with u. to suffer and stand with friends.

is that not the best thing i could ask for. im not talking about the suffering (damned sadists). its just, having good friends each day to keep ya company. to just have fun even while working hard. surely i need not explain further with words?

im not say close to many of these friends. its quite typical in design school eh? or maybe even in the whole poly. there are practically no close friends. but i have friends, that even though not close, they respect each other and help each other. u dont need to be close to someone to enjoy urself (close i mean, share ur deep dark secrets). u just need to have someone u feel comfortable and good with. all of us respect and support each other. thats whats most important. thats what makes me feel happy. haha...i sound pretty lame. i think. oh well.

its tough not having friends to talk to when u have probs. realli tough. its like ur so alone. so all i have to say for those u feel that way. dont complain that u feel alone. go tell someone nice (which would be a nice friend) how u feel and make that friendship stronger. isnt that how close friends are formed? u can find a good friend, but to have a great friend, u have to explore into the person, and to do that, u need to exchange information with the person. its quite logical. humans want something in return for another thing. socialising is the exchange of information.

p.s.: i preach too much...

Dedication

Dedication

alrite. this is gonna be a short one.

this post is dedicated to felicia leow pei jun.

y, u ask? ok...even if ur not asking shut up and ill tell u. XD

cos of all the tags she has given to my tag board, in this blog.

ok...i admit it...most of them if not all are just crap tags. spam. useless stuff.(no offence feli)

but when it comes to tagging...u dont give a damn. frequent tagging means the person pays attention to ur blog. paying attention to a persons blog gives meaning to it. its like sustaining its life and giving me a reason to type here.

i noe how i get disapointed when no one tags at my board. and i noe u other bloggers out there feel the same. u noe it! u want that recognition! to noe people paid a visit.

ok suddenly this post aint short anymore. heck.

so yeah. i noe ur reading this felicia. this is my thanx. =). truly and sincerely.

p.s.: this felicia is my sec school friend. not from TP.

Wreck

Wreak

urrrgh!!! my body is a freakin wreck!!! its just one of those freakin times where my body feels like crap. and my mind is also a blur.

lets see...its from not excercising often, playing badminton witout warming up, sleeping late, straining my eyes out on drawings, typing out journals and essays, and not enough water.

i have a sore throat, a cramp neck, several body parts aching, teary eyes, and worst of all all the FUCKING WORK i still have to do. blargh!

its a nonstop flow of work, but i dont mind much onli for the essays and journals. what a freakin pain!

drawing >>>>> writing

other then that, my life has been pretty much 'uneventful' in the aspect of no gossip, no one im interested in, and no one interested in me (duh).

but its strange that im not 'bored' yet. as in like how i usually complain about 'a life witout contemplation or meaning'. all the friends i have in school keep me entertained. i may not be close to any of them, but they are a lively bunch, always fun to simpy just chat with them.

and yesterday natasha chatted with me after a looooong time.

shes still a damn immature young fool. haha. but she got me thinking about stuff like chasing gals. haha! its cos of part of the conversation.

nat// : i tot ur skl'z full of gurlz
Archfreak...: yeah it is!
Archfreak...: but i not aiming for any
nat// : haha
nat// : any cute ones?
Archfreak...: hmm
Archfreak...: yeah
Archfreak...: there are
nat// : rilie hott ones?
Archfreak...: hurrr...i just not realli into any
Archfreak...: oh hot huh
Archfreak...: more
Archfreak...: lol
nat// : i think u should go fer them
nat// : but anyways
nat// : ur choice n urs alone
Archfreak...: hmm...y do u think i should go for them
nat// : i duno
nat// : start a relationship so tht u hv sth to
look forward when u're at skl???
nat// : like...seein' ur gurl in the corridors?
Archfreak...: haha!
Archfreak...: hmm
Archfreak...: interesting thoughts
nat// : haha
nat// : nah
nat// : just tht wut i'd like when i'm in a
boi+gurl skl
nat// : skl sux u noe
Archfreak...: haha
Archfreak...: yeah i noe...
nat// : haha
nat// : yahh
nat// : NO INTEREST at all???
Archfreak...: lol
Archfreak...: no interest yet
Archfreak...: like...i see some gals i feel attracted to
but i dont wanna do anything cos i onli noe thier looks

and then the conversation trails off to stuff about flirting with people, which is boring crap. the thing is, it made me realise how different my views had changed about wooing gals. its like...y the hell should i be like 'hunting' for a gal?

as i always say, go with the flow.

like i see a friend of mine, who has like so many targets and hes upset when each target gets struck off his list. wtf mannn. thats not love. its like some kind of forced thing.

like when a person onli wants a gal for the status of 'attached', not for realli having true feelings for who the gal is. do u people understand? lol.

so yeah...go with the flow. or as my best buddy fukun would say, 'time will tell'.

p.s.: mixing slacking and work is tough...

Uniform Students

Uniform Students

this is a report of sorts about what i think of secondary and junior college students after being a newly fledged POLYTECHNIC STUDENT.

secondary and JC students are best at

• crowding shopping centres like ants during thier free days(SPECIFICALLY SECONDARY SMALL FRIES)
• making me think how inferior they are due to thier uniforms

secondary school students

• guys in short pants are fucking pathetic
• guys in short pants are to be addressed as SMALL FRY only
• girls in lower sec are freakin annoying with all thier damned exaggerated probs
• lower sec people in general are worth kicking cos they think a a few years diff doesnt mean we're smarter.
• i mean...c'mon. lower sec people are damned stupid. ok this isnt realli a point but nevertheless.
• upper sec gals are also freakin annoying. e.g.* Q: "I FAILED MY TEST AGAIN!! WHAT TO DO?!?!" Ans: "suicide is your only option."* *Statement: "i think my boyfriend is cheating on me." Reply: "i can see why he might want to do that."*
• upper sec guys are at least not so bad imo.
• Sec School students generally suck alot.

JC students

• are always fucking cheerful in groups. what is up with that?!?!
• girls in JC ALWAYS wear thier skirts short. not that im complaining.
• guys in JC seem to like thier school pants very baggy.
• uniforms of JC student are pretty damned boring.
• Jc students generally rock hard.

people who might be offended by what i said (especially stuff regarding sec school students) can take note that im freakin nuts. thank you.

p.s.: just kidding

Anniversary

Anniversary

i just realised something.

ive had this blog since 28th may 2004. ok so im one day late but who freakin' cares? i sure as hell don't.

i never thought id keep this blog for so long! hahaha! this is like a small achievement. or rather, something i didn't think would happen.

some facts about this blog.:
-
this blog skin has nvr been changed. not even once from the time i chose it!

this blog has survived only because of constant (irritating) requests from friends to get off my lazy ass and type stuff about my pathetic life.

no entry from this blog has ever been deleted or 'purged'. this is because i wish to retain all my emotions and feelings of the past. no deleting my shame or regret of the past.
-

alrite...i think thats all i want to write relating to this so called 'Anniversary'.

my true concerns are what i wish to say now
this is addressed to her.

please don't worry about how i feel anymore. i am now fine. truly. i have gotten ur message and fully understood it. i am past the pointless emotions. i am fine =). now, i only hope that YOU are fine. i believe u are feeling far worse then me. dont think about it so much anymore! ur torturing yourself. i know...perhaps u can't help it, the feelings and thoughts just don't go away. so im guess i HOPE you will be fine.

theres no need to say sorry anymore. u didn't mean what u did, and i know ur saying sorry to make me feel better. theres no need to do so anymore. i have changed my phone picture. you are still the great friend i percieve u to be. if you are a sucker, then i am too. i have let my feelings go, but i will not let this friendship go.

you have, indeed, changed me. all my friends have. everyone around me, has shaped me into what i am now. you are no different. this life goes on, and that doesn't mean i have to leave you behind.

real friends go forth together. regardless of what happens.

p.s.: one who is emo but says nothing of it. no one realises.

Reminescience

Reminescience

today, i read jason's blog again. i read further into his past entries. simply said, i laughed my ass off reading his entries.

then after that, i thought to myself. my writing used to be funny. entertaining. nonsensical. though probrably not as good as jason's, it used to be better then it is now.

then i reread my old blog entries. i laughed to myself. memories just flood back at the details i wrote. this blog used to be consistently updated, about once a week. now i see, i no longer care as i once did.

im supposed to be writing interesting, witty stuff!

whats happened? i miss my old school friends, who in the first place, coaxed me into starting this blog. now they are no longer around to witness my energy go into this blog. in fact, they no longer care for any blog, including thier own.

stuff like my vocab, word usage, and spelling, have been poor. i never thought i'd CARE so much about my english usage.

p.s.: im no longer the same

Nil

Nil

yesterday was the 1st time in a long time i kinda cried...

no i wasnt crying uncontrollably...

just some tears.

i dunno y. i just felt so sad. like im alone. with no one to care about me.

u noe...its like...in the design school...i have lots of friends. i have lots of fun with them. talk cock sing song... but when it gets down to stuff that MATTERS...the stuff of emotions...theres NO one there.

siti is always working. fukun is busy with school stuff. nurul is also busy...

i noe. if i told them i had a prob, they would go to me. they would want to make me feel better. but its times like these u dont want to find them. u want them to come. to find U. to be THERE even if u dont say it. arent humans so selfish?

i dont want silly advise...like 'its gonna be ok', 'take it easy', 'its just like that'. i can read those out of a book titled 'typical optimistic phrases'. i guess u onli give good advice when u care.

now after all this stuff has happened...i dont wanna care about my past temptations any longer...at least not for a period of time. im gonna devote myself to my work and martial arts.

p.s.: my mental activity has slacked over the days. whats happened..?!

Back OFF

Back OFF

i dont understand...

ive been misjudged. cos of someone who says its cos shes oversensitive. i dunno if ive done anything wrong...that might upset her...whats up with this...

i just told her i hope shes not awkward...but obviously her mental tots are no longer the same once ive said what i did. dont blame me when im doing NOTHING.

sometimes im bz and i cant reply sms...and if its among friends its no big deal rite?!?! a guy should definitely reply...but sometimes...i cant be there for everyone...i onli wish i could devote my life to my friends...but i noe, if i do that id no longer exist...

im not trying to say im being bullied here...or wadever...i just wanna say what i wanna say...in my own space...

im not trying to say im like some pathetic guy or shes a bad person...

no...i believe shes a great person...

i just...feel that shes need not be so blunt...i already noe ur feelings...i already noe...but u dont have to shove it in my face...i already noe...

now this is my act of being oversensitive...i dont care

i understand and respect ur decision...our friendship is what matters...

p.s.: this is my matter. dont bug me...

Neon OEI!!!

Neon OEI!!!

alrite...i havent written in this blog for some time and lots of stuff has happened since the last entry...stuff like the FREAKIN TP CAMP!!!

the TP F.O.C (freshman orientation camp) was great maaaan...just freakin great...

i got to noe sooo many people in just 3 days!!! the activities there were just damn fun...all the cheers, HILARIOUS games, and pyscho GL's.

DAY 1

the 1st day was the shortest. my dad brought me to the camp by car. as he was driving in to the camp site, he saw this gal who was walking along side the side, so he asked her to hop in for a free ride. i was like..WHAT! cos i dont feel very comfortable with hot, female, strangers...i tend to behave like a moron -.-

but after we got off from the car, i asked her name and what course she was in..and hey! first friend from the camp! hahaha. but we went on our own ways to go to different groups. i went to a group called NEON.

so its like...i was guided to my group by a GL and all this people were sitting in a circle, just staring at other people, looking around...asking names, courses...u could c socializing everywhere! and so followed the ICE BREAKING GAMES. can i skip this part? typical ice breaking ah...meh. we also learned our cheers during this time. at first i was like...what the hell...but later i was realli on for these cheers. just fun cheering like idiots in a mass!

we also met the so called, SHIM during this day...his real name is Kai and he is FREAKIN HILARIOUS guy...he is called shim for a speical reason of course -.-

then we had the 'get-freshies-to-know-more-of-tampines-central' game! basically we got a clue and had to find places in tampines cntreal from these clues. when we arrived at the destination,we would have to do a task, and then be given another clue, rinse and repeat till all were done. just summarise lah huh -.-

i forgot whats after that game so ill just skip to SLEEP...or rather...THE LACK OF IT. u c...the fans in the hall, the place we were sleeping in, was switched off during a certain time at night, leaving us to suffer in torment, sweating buckets when we should be sound asleep. WORSE MOMENT IN CAMP EVAR! i didnt even get to sleep a wink!!!

Day 2

alrite...this day was pretty much a blur to me...as i didnt sleep atall, everything i heard, or saw was pretty much all a swirl jumbled senses...

if im not wrong the activites that dya were...the crappy morning pt...the BUCKET AND THE CONE *LMAOZ*...the HAIRY MAN HUNT!...the scavenger hunt, the performance at nite, and lastly...the 1 hr dance rave, finished by TP mass dance and the funky chicken!!!

i was super high that day...thanx to having no sleep and onli adrenaline keeping me awake, i totally heck care what i was doing, ESP during the rave...geeeez i was like in a trance, hypnotised by the thumping music and hot, sweaty bodies. i become addicted to the drug. i couldnt stop. i was HOOKED
towards the end of the dance i stepped out for a drink. as i was going back to the hall, i suddenly heard...THE SONG FOR MASS DANCE!!! so i was like...WTF!!! CHIOOOONG!!! hahaha! i soooo love that dance. i then proceeded to a group of 3 gals and asked one of them 'may i?'. she was like..'huh?' so i said 'nvrm' but HEY! she then said OK to dance. woo hoo. haha...but i was pretty stupid...i didnt ask her name after we finished!

then proceeded for debrief, and then some sleep...

Day 3

alriteeee...the last day...

today was the day we had LOADS of water games...its like...WHOLE day we were wet...nvr a moment of dryness...

but hell...it was sooo damned fun. just getting soaked by cool water in the hot sun. so shiok! we were like BEGGING for water to be sprayed on us! but the quiet people didnt wanna get soaked...geez they dunno what they missing daaa.

after all that water fun, it was time for...THE FINAL CLASH!!! (cue dramatic 'brace urself' music)

ok...the game is simply destroying another teams paper ring (shaped like a lollipop) by throwing water bombs at it...simple rite? simple but VIOLENT. haha. could c alot of heated emotions during the game

ok...so there were 6 teams...the 5 empires and the Log Gl's. we played at a big field

simply said, the GL's got owned pretty bad -.-.

then followed by a DOUBLE, DOUBLE K.O. by Neon and Krypton. its like...both teams just RUSH and threw everything they had CLOSE RANGE. i was one of them who threw the bomb to the lollipop. we practically ignored the other humans and aimed for THE BIG LOLLIPOP. both were destroyed once, and then TWICE after given a 2nd chance. so we left the field and cheered on!!!

we had been defeated but hey! we took our opponent with us and our spirits were still BLAZING! wooooo!! we cheered and cheered on the rest. finally, xeon was the one that won...haha. well..the game wasnt realli fair...i noe from reliable sources =). but hey it was still fun

so we all walked back to the hall and there was prize giving. after prize giving, there was...THE EMO SPEECH. or should i say...THE LAME SPEECH! geez...so lame leh the head of student union...hahaha

but kai realli did cry alot...he was like...so emo...respect man! haha...nothing wrong with a guy crying!

there was also the last mass dance of the camp!!! yesssaaaa!!! i love the dance! hahaha.

lastly there was the giving of certificate and LOTS of photo taking! by goodness...practicaly every 'unshy' guy went to take a pic with jia yi (me included >_<). shes just too damn chio lah...cannot resist taking photo...haha

theres a tradition to go to cpf building and eat with all the campers after the camp, but i didnt go. i was already too damned tired lah...it was already like past midnite! i needed sleep not fun and food! heard some people stayed even till 6am in the morning!!! GEEZ...hardcore lah...respect!

so yeah...thats the main stuff that happened during the camp. i met alot of new people, alot of nice gals, alot of cool guys. apparently alot of people were 'attracted' to each other.

but apparently im not 1 one them...haha...didnt find anyone i realli liked =P

i wont ever forget this camp...realli the most fun ive had in my life...

p.s.: TP TP SUT SUT OEEEIIIIII!!!

Ponder

Ponder

am i in love again?

am i hiding this feeling?

am i scared of rejection?

am i realli confused or am i just running away?

am i simply scared things wont go the way i want?


am i a coward...?


p.s.: time will tell =)

BACK!!!

BACK!!!

dammit people...5 freakin days...of staying in perth, australia. FINALLY BACK!!! WOO HOO!!!.

now please people...dont get me wrong...i noe im lucky to go the perth and all. but dammit! the place onli has shopping and food! im a guy. i shop for say 2 day, and im DONE. 3 extra days? BOREDOM! theres no natural scenary, and everywhere its urban.

but at least theres a consolation. the girls there are freakin. hot.

i think its mainly the way they dress. they LOVE cloths which show thier figure. the cloths are like tight around thier body ya noe!!! not skin tight...but still gripping thier body. and they have the FIGURE to show for it dammit...*AHEM*...uh...i think ill stop =)

and ive bought some gifts for people...if u want'em then sms or call me dammit...im notur servant! ive bought for people like nurul, siti, ivan, ying hui, and chin fu.

note to felicia: im sorry feli but i could not find what u were looking for. SORRY!!! do NOT kill me.

p.s.: if u wanna go to aussie...DONT GO TO PERTH. GO TO MELBOURNE OR BRISBANE!

Drained

Drained

yesterday, i awoke at 8am in the morning, rather then my usual 11am. the reason was so as to do my medical checkup for my polytechnic. i went with ivan, joel and jeffrey. first, we went to tampines dbs to do have an appointment for the checkup, but apparently, the earliest date for checkup was on the 18th -.- . thus, we guys went to eastern clinic at bedok (or upper changi?) to do the checkup.

it took a faggin long time. by the time all of us were done with the waiting, and checkup, it was already say...2pm? blaaaargh. we guys chatted about what kinda gal we like...as in ya noe...which part of the body ull take note of. hehe. joel had nothing much to say...ill not disclose the rest as well =P. as for me, i said i look at the eyes and ass first hahahaha! but no matter how hot the gal is, if shes a bitch, no hotness can save her.

they then went to my house to kill time. blah blah blah. joel and jeffrey left after about an hour and later i left the house with my brother, ivan, and kenneth (my brother's friend). ivan went home, and the rest of us went to my brothers poly chalter thing.

two words: FUCKING. BORING.

my bro went back home from the chalet for awhile to bring some stuff over, so i followed. i met ivan along the way and we went back to the chalet. the chalet is nonsense i tell u. its so CRAPPY. so i left with ivan and we both wandered the whole of freakin pasir ris.

commence of wandering: 1am+

so we wandered around, talked crap, discussed on certain topics, about different kinds of people...all while trekking in the voids of the night.

time: 3am

then i got tired. so we went back to my house so i could sleep and he could take his own stuff home. so i unlocked the gates, and pushed the door open. but lo and behold! the door was BOLTED SHUT from the inside!!! and NO ONE WAS AWAKE.

so...about turn and more wandering -.-

we wandered off even farther now, till our words were slurred, our bodies slouching.
ill cut the crap. my 5am i decided to go back and wake my mom and let home.

tired man...just tired...awoke earlier today onli to barely sleep in darkness...

so now, my typing is sloppy and my eyes are burning...so i apologise if this was a crappy read. hehe.

p.s.: ivan is the THIGH MAN

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p.s.: just a detailed description of aikido =P

Aikido

Aikido

on the 31st of march, a thursday, i went for my first aikido lesson...

aikido, for those of u who dont noe, is a type of martial arts, based on countering movements of an opponent using his own force. it involves some footwork and coordination.

the venue was the community centre, 8pm, at the basketball court. when i reached there, mat's were already laid on the floor and a number of people, about 30, were in thier aikido 'gi' (the uniform). i, being one of the newcomers, wore my typical t-shirt and pants. i was the onli one who didnt wear something that covered my whole leg.

the feeling of being a newcomer was a little awkward at first, as i didnt noe what to do. i was told to follow the rest first, which i did. we bowed to the picture of the founder of aikido, and we did some warm up. in case u didnt noe, i had went to the gym 2 days earlier from that thursday. i was already aching as my body had not recovered, esp my abdominal muscles. but there was no excuse when doing warm up...i was totally struggling when doing the warm up, didnt even do any aikido thing yet!

by the end of just the warm up, i was sweating, and panting. i wasnt ready to go there! damn i tot...shouldnt have gone to the gym!

however, after the warm up, the newcomers were separted from the rest. there were 5 newcomers including me. the oldest being a 37 year old man, followed by me, then a sec 1 malay girl, a primary 5 malay boy, and lastly, a very young malay boy whose age i still have not found out.

one of the intructors tutored us from then on, separately from the rest.

we learned how to forward roll, backward roll, do different stances, switching between these stances, falling down safely from a fall, and how to do a basic throw by utilising the stances we had just learned.

we had to roll and roll and roll over and over to get used to it. 4 times forward then 4 times backward. being thrown by people and rolling safely away. it was realli interesting though it was very physical! the whole of my back is aching now, even my shoulders, arms and thighs. the worst of all is my abdominal muscle!! even sneezing hurts!!! dammit!

and i was a little disapoint...cos there werent ANY CHIO BU'S AT ALL!!! >_< blaaargh! onli one lone gal for the young adults class and she isnt even pretty or anything. hahaha, i sound totally despo.

anyways, my friends, im going to australia soon! going to perth to visit my sister and just relax. too bad not going to melbourne or i might c the bitch again! hahaha! ill be gone for about 5 days i think...from the 14th of april

p.s.: i wanna go back to siglap again!!! hahaha! feel the urge of seeing my juniors...wonder how they are doing.

By Request

By Request

due to numerous requests to stop being a lazy ass and update this blog, i am now typing this entry...its been a long time since ive blogged eh?

im now waiting for school to start again. dammit! y does school start on 23 may?!?! i want it to start EARLIER! i wanna meet more people, or actually...GIRLS! bwahaha! now im no longer say...deprived of female company. ive gotten used to it...
and now for some strange reason more people are saying im a 'nice guy' and should have no problem getting a gf (-.-). what the hell. its kinda creepy ya noe...cos i dont c myself as someone most people would bother about. sure i may be a 'nice guy' i guess but its no big deal. people still dont care much.

i think im gaining weight! geez...no more P.E. in school is taking its toll. ive gained a FULL KG!!! WOW! hahaha! no big deal but this may just be the start...

most of the people i noe are going to temasek polytechnic. guess ill still be seeing some familier faces. siti is going to nyp. geez...ill miss her to bits. im actually kinda worried for her...shes not good at making good friends. will she get lost going there?! will she be all alone?!?! goodness im like some worried parent. u better be thankful siti!!! theres a sucker always looking out for u (-.-)

p.s.: PLS LET THERE BE HOT CHICKS MY COURSE! =P

Emotions

Emotions

after a long time away from this blog, i finally wanna update it again.

the reason im updating now is because, these few days, i feel so overcome by my emotions. like, i will feel sad for things that dont realli concern me, i will help people even though its out of my way. i just feel like i want to love everyone i can! just...to be a TRUE friend when someone needs it.

after all this time, during these holidays...is it because of time away from school? or is it just me? i dunno...but i do noe now, the importance and value of your companians...

i went to school today for the CNY performance.

ill skip the shit in the morning. i didnt watch the performance in the hall. but what i did c, was my juniors, the main reason y i still love the school.

i dunno how to say it. these juniors are just...so damn freakin important to me. its not like i NEED them or DEPEND on them. i just REALLI LOVE THEM. i feel so attached to them. to the point like i want thier recognition? i dunno. i feel like of all my friends, i like my juniors in school the most...even though in truth my group of 'brothers' have far more value and we are more bonded, we guys are still, in essence, GUYS. the love we share is more the rough and gruff kind.

its hard to explain, but perhaps, some people may understand what i mean.

anyways, later after the performance, i went with kun, yh, paul, andy, jy, khadijah and sharon to whitesands. we ate canadian pizza. we even gambled after the food! now i think of it, thank goodness no police came or else that would have been trouble.

later, we went to orchard, without kun and paul. i have nothing much to say here. but what i did notice was that, jerreme realli hasnt changed. he claims he has changed, but in truth, it is onli in the minimal. he is still the childish fem-obsessed moron i noe though slightly more 'controlled'. lol kkk.

another thing i noticed was, now sharon was so much more...'loose' then before. she was no longer serious and stiff. she could joke around and have fun so much better then before. it was then that i realised, she was indeed, a beautiful gal. i nvr tot that, even when many said she was pretty last yr. i had tot she had changed, becoming more 'beautiful' then before, but now i noe it was simply me. the mental liking of a person does indeed play a big part in things.

p.s.: i need someone to talk to and share my tots with!!! girls truly are more gentle...

Deprived

Deprived

im feeling realllliii deprived of...

FEMALE COMPANY!!!

omg...i sound like a freakin old pervo...but i realli am feeling that way...
its like, whenever im out, i CANT STOP LOOKING AT PRETTY GALS!!! this is a baaaad sign that i do need females...now i noe how guys in boy schools feel like...

its not as if i didnt look at pretty gals before, but now i feel that i am overdoing it...like as if i just cant control my eyes! i used to be not so bothered about gals i just c, but now its like im getting more and more 'observant' (hope i didnt sound too much like a despo)

anyways, i wanna get a job...very soon...im getting tired of rotting in my current state...all i do is stay home and once in a while i go out but thats IT!

i need something to do! and whats more, i realli have to meet more people (actually, more of girls)

im quite disguested at myself...lol...am i like some psycho guy who NEEDS GALS AROUND so much? urgh...nvrm as long as i dont behave like a desperate asshole (behavior i deem as intolerable)

p.s.: yes...i am a sick ass... >_<

Say my farewells

Say my farewells

grad nite is over...in fact it was over a few days ago, ive been slacking...i actually didnt feel like updating but when i saw my other friends blogs about grad nite, my emotions activated and thus...

grad nite was fun...i was realli looking forward to the tribute part but then i realise, it was onli for sec 5! where are the sec 4's...its disapointing cos while i felt sad about leaving, it felt like we sec 4's were kinda left out...

but it wasnt such a bummer...in the end i had lots of fun going around the ballroom, taking photos with everyone. it was realli run just snapping pics with all my dear friends, those who i had spent 4 yrs with, suffering and living and enjoying in the same school...i didnt even mind the endless flashing and temporary blindness

i have to say the most ravishing individuals present in the ballroom were sharon and chu hue...when i first saw them i was shocked...jerreme kept sayng to us 'OMG SHARON IS HOOOOTTTTT!!!' cos he and me saw her entering...and damn id have to agree with him...wahaha!...

my onli regret was that i didnt take photos with ruiwen, kai lin, and ching ling...none of them seemed to have a camera and i too didnt have...i have fond memories of those 3 especially in sec 2...but when i couldnt take photos with them in the end, it was kind of a aching feeling...

in the end, at the end of grad nite, the heavy thumping music start, and whao!...the wild people started to shake thier booties! adrena's skirt is WAYYYYY too short for her to be dancing like that *I COULD ALMOST SEEEEE!!!!* >_<...lol kkk *pervo*

after while though, it was time to leave with my bros but the feelings of leaving (for me at least) was heartwrenching! stepping out of the ballroom one final time, was painful and i didnt wanna get out but in the end...i did. with one step out, and a final look at the still raving dancers, teachers, and everyone else, i bid my secondary school life adieu, and walked with my head held high and my heart held low. it was such an empty feeling.

but in the end, i enjoyed myself thoroughly

p.s.: i shall nvr forget my 4 yrs here...cheers to our new life!

wtfomgbbq!!!!!!!!!!11111one!!!111hundredandeleven!!!111

wtfomgbbq!!!!!!!!!!!111111one!!!onehundredandeleven!!!111

ok...long time since i update...and...this is probrably the last time i will update till after my o lvls...

i shall say now...that my results for prelims suxorz...i total of 33 for L1R4 and 42 for L1R5...are those numbers 'divine' or what? well im aiming for a low 19 points for the O's (L1R4) and im still waaaaay far from that target...

study study study...everyone who treats me as a friend...pls start studying...lets c each other next yr with smiling faces. even a slacker like me is studying now...onli about 1 month more...

theres nothing much to say now...as mr wee said...drop ur social life to score well...and i think he is rite...rite now everything is secondary...haiz...i cant wait for the exams to be over!!!

well...nothing much to put here...just tough out out for 2 more months people!!! 2 more months and we are home free...!!!

p.s.: if theres ever a subject that deserves the title 'Tough Biatch' its got to be A maths...