Ying Hui

another thing. seems ying hui can now read me like a book. impressive.

he says im the guy who noes him best.

and now i think, he is problrably the guy who noes me best as well.

he even noes certain things about me i barely bother remember, or even TOLD anyone. he just says, it seems like me. and somehow he is pretty damn correct.

guess we 2 are simply...

brothers beyond blood.

brothers beyond words.

ice skating is flipping. damn. fun.

indeed.

it is.



on 28th oct, is my very good friend/brother, fukun's, birthday.

it was the first time in a loooong time, 'the guys' and me got together again for a meet.

other then us guys, there were the china people as well (fukun's gf side of the family).



sooo...ice skating is damn fun.

and also, a good place to mix around with gals. yes, indeed.

why? (need u ask?)

cos its a good excuse to help gals who dunno how to skate. and sometimes collisions happen. dont need to say more. XD



in the beginning, i couldnt even STAND witout holding to the rail like some baby. like 2 hand on the side handle and STURGGLING to move o witout falling. looked pretty stupid i think...

by the 2nd hour, i could finally skate properly...as in...not 'walk' on the ice, and move with some speed. it was great.

onli time i kinda fell was when i went with 2 others. one fall, all fall. thankfully i onli landed on one knee onli. no big deal. but ya know what. falling down was the most fun. daniel agrees too. hahahaha.

fukun and daniel fell the most. or actually, i think FUKUN.

he is fearless on the skating rink. so he simply not cautious about kissing the ice. it was pretty funny watching him continuously fumble and slide. EVIL.

other then that...not much else about the birthday outing is worth mentioning.

so.................

btw the end of this week, i would have earned about $571.

thats like. half a-fagging K. and i earned it all with my sweat and BLOOD!

ok, all i do is sit in the office and do boring stuff like filing or admin stuff...so i exaggerate...who cares XD.


i rarely go on shopping sprees (or shopping at all) but i think one should be coming up soon...hoho...



anyways.

hmm. had a great time chatting with theresa and abby yesterday.

theresa, because of some very interesting information.

and abby, because i was reminded of how things should be.

ill not elaborate on either. i just wish to put it down on this blog. just so humans noe. (yeah YOU HUMIESSS!!!)



tmrw ill be meeting up with my gang of brothers again. its been a long time.

we guys...dont need to talk to each other to noe we care. its an unspoken thing among guys. and saying it out loud would just make it weird.

or rather...id say my group of friends are all the independant solo-ists who dont need humans to survive. (well maybe fukun cant survive witout his galfriend?)

we dont ask each other out EVAR (onli thomas bothers about outings...i dunno why). we dont talk much at all, especially now all of us have gone separate ways.

but still, i believe we have a deep connection in us that goes far beyond verbal communication and physical distance.

the cheesy typical 'brotherhood' among guys XD

BAHA.

i terribly miss my friends.

even those who i didnt talk to much.

as long as i had some fondness for them.

my secondary school friends would be obvious.


most of all rite now would be fukun and ying hui. where are the brothers! geez!


the scgs gals i used to talk to often...i am also remindd of them. hmm...i feel so...left out of thier lives now. haiz.

kk, enough self pity.

so. right off the bat.

firstly.

out of boredom, and probrably cos of a little curiousity inspired from theresa's blog, i went to xia xue's blog.

now people. let me make clear. i dislike xia xue. overrated. soooo overrated. for various reasons which i shall not explore further into, i dislike her.

there ARE certain issue i do come to agree with her. but most times, i find she complains so much that i find im tempted to just give a comment for her to stfu. but alas, my logic tells me its useless.

so lets see. thanx to theresa, i came to realie that 'xia xue' thinks handicap people should let others use facilities that are more meant for them more freely.

i myself, have never went into a handicap toilet, nor a mrt lift, and i am always trying to avoid ramps whenever its crowded.

so. first thing that came to my mind when i was reading 'xia xue's ' entry.

in japan, there are lifts in the train stations for handicap people to use as well, similar to Singapore. *in fact, Singapore is catching up to japan still. no matter.*

well the thing is, anyone with walking legs NEVER uses the lift. the lift is constantly STAGNANT and is never in use even when the place is damn crowded.

the onli people who use it are handicap people.

same goes for the handicap toilets. u will never see a people outside a handicap toilet, waiting.

what does this mean?

it means singaporeans are still too damn lazy and unthoughtful. nonono. wait. thats abit wrong.

the truth is, japanese are much more patient and not as time conservant as singaporeans (except when it comes to work done...thats totally different).

singaporean people just cant wait at all longer then 2 minutes.

thats the prob.

somehow this ended up me praising the japanese. damn.

so anyways, the main thing is, xia xue sux, and is still too damn stupid.

*on a side note...what the fuck! she puts at the title of her blog, "Everyone's reading it." ok this is one thing...another. she put her picture with angel wings. DAMN i cant stand it! and she constantly praises herself shamelessly. actually this is alrite for humour but whats shes doing is like ARRRGH* (sorry. its a rant. not a note.)

ok. now. 2nd thing on my mind.

ivan came over today. one thing he said that i remember.



ivan: 'eh uh...u these days like got something wrong leh...'

vic: 'hmm? realli meh? where got sia?'

ivan: 'got. like something disturbing u alot sia. like very bothered.'

vic: '*!* yeah! thats true! for some reason i just cant figure it out...dunno...'

ivan: 'ah ok...take care lah...dont worry too much...'

vic: 'ah yeah yeah...see how lah...'

(for those of u who dunno, which im guessing is practicaly almost everyone, the way i speak varies with who im addressing at the time. this time, i was talking in singlish to suit the person)


so yeah. even he can see it. is it realli so serious? hmm...




work sux. i know.




i went to take a look at watched today, in tampines mall. there are 2 watches i have my eye on. both timex. one is 99. another is 149. i shall have to consider once i have my pay.

lets see. if all goes well, my pay should be 400 by friday.

400
-150 (watch. price varying.)
250

250
-100 (rendering marker set.)
150

150
-100 (cloths. very unpredictable cost.)
50

50 remaining. probrably to my parents. i feel ashamed as it is giving so little. >_<

so. im posting a bit past midnight.

yesterday, abby came back. it was on my mind for awhile, especially in the morning.

i didnt think about it again till late at night.

and for some reason, i cant remember, i went to dictionary.com.

i simply couldnt remember why i went there.

but then i saw a 'word of the day' rite at the bottom of the screen

i decided to scroll down further and a take a look.

the word was 'lackadaisical'.

now for those of u who dont noe. thats one the word that abby likes. and she has that word in her msn nick all the time.

i was abit shocked and amazed.

rite on the day she came back. weird.

so anyways.

i cant wait for my pay. damn.

ah materialism is kicking in.

1. a new watch.
2. rendering markers.
3. cloths.

this will probrably blow all my earnings but hey i think those stuff are important.




for some reason theres something thats lingering at the back of mind.

its the feeling of slight dread...or something i somehow havent resolved yet.

a negative feeling thats abit bothersome.

i dont have much of an idea what it is...quite undefined.

lets see...here are some of the things i have concluded of whats bothering me.
in no particular order.

• schools starting and i feeling like works gonna be like hell again.
• i havent been communicating with my friends much and somehow i feel...bad.
• i shouldnt be thinking the way i should be and i just cant convince myself otherwise!
• i keep thinking my dad dislikes me playing games and so whenever i play, it gets me very uncomfortable and bothered.

i think those are the biggest things.

rite now, im thinking its a bit of all of them, not not much of the playing games part...

its all the little things...ha.




im talking to joel now. (my secondary school mate, not the prick in my current school)

one thing i love talking to him about.

SELF REALISATION.

he is constantly discovering new things about the way he thinks and opinions of other people.

he tells me his thoughts.

i find it immensely interesting.

not because he is JOEL but because he is someone who tells me how he feels about things and all. he is deep thinker thats different.

ordinary people who say they think deeply usually say that just to make people think they always think alot and are wise or wadever shit.

but my friend here doesnt do that. he simply thinks about things, and expresses his desire to find out the reason behind it, or simply share his thoughts so i might give insight.

to share ur thoughts with another friend, and discuss ideas and possiblities.

i truly do like that.

*note: i often do this alone as well with just me thinking of different possiblities and outcomes of things. i believe this is called hypothesising. my friend abby calls it assuming and dislikes it.*

*cough*



so...i think thats enough for today. i hope it stops raining in the day.

hmm.

so im pretty bored.

today is my first day of work. it was alrite.

i had to sort out and arrange papers in proper order for filing. i went through about 4 thousands sheets of paper for the day.

anyways. im bored.

lemme type crap.

yesterday i saw 2 girls as i was walking home from whitesands. i just glanced at them. i onli saw the face of 1 gal. but damn that gal is mighty damn fine. nice bod and pretty face and all. but ya noe what. i didnt look much. i cant figure out why. she was looking at me as we passed, that i noe. and she glanced back at me as i was checking her out. i was thinking *what a waste*

another thing.

my sex drive is lowwwwwww. i need an aphrodisiac or something. HA. i probrably spent too much of my hormones in the past weeks or something. now please people dont think off track haha.

one last thing.

i think ivan is full of bullshit. and thats probrably the most logical thing in this entry. thank u.

*Note: the ivan i state is from my secondary school. not the ivan from neon. spank u very much.*

i was chatting with theresa.

ok. casual talk. smooth.

towards the end, she tells me something. she says she regrets.

alrite. for some reason, i feel abit negative about it. i say negative cos its undefined but its definitely not positive.

why?

because i was the one that encouraged her.

isnt it a tad bit sad? or maybe...more of guilty?

hmm...its hard to explain why these slight human emotions eh?


so aside from that.

i feel like typng out more liberal stuff about my feelings.

but damn.

im getting to feel people out there who read my blog would catch on stuff and start gossip and rumour or just plain annoy me for the fun of it (like a secondary school kiddo).

u noe the feeling. the sense of being judged.

im one who doesnt believe in conceiling myself. well...more of the psych then the physical point of view.

so truly i have nothing to hide. but it does get annoying sometimes. foo's


theres a difference between ignoring and being unbothered.

do u noe?

i didnt even realise abby was gone till i check her blog for update.

lemme tell ya, i was like totally STUNNED.

i didnt noe she was gonna be gone so soon?!?!

hmm. and she put in her blog in small text.
*ps. miss me. HEH*

well damn.