Wednesday, December 05, 2007

18th YISS

Tomorrow, i am going to the Youth In The Spirit Seminar. Again.

For those of you who remember, which i shall count as none, i went for the 17th YISS on June.

It was life changing for me.

Now im going through it again, but no longer as a participant. I am part of the service team for the camp this time around.

I wonder if it will be another life changing experience.

It's a 4 day camp, so i won't be home till Sunday night. And i'll probably be too tired to go online then.



If anyone of you out there still reads my blog, tell me k.

Or i might consider halting the posts. This blog isnt for me. Its for my friends who dont talk much to me yeah. So if you out there, just leave me a post.

Please.



Till the next distance update, whoever is there =)

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Exhalt and be humbled

For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.
Luke 14:11

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A man's pride will bring him low, But a humble spirit will obtain honor.
Proverbs 29:23
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Whoever exalts himself shall be humbled; and whoever humbles himself shall be exalted.
Matthew 23:12
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Don't show off for your own satisfaction.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Just one sentence

Anything that is out of my capability to solve, despite my stubborness, I hope that I remember to leave it to God.

Monday, October 01, 2007

The Nights

It's difficult not to feel lonely at night sometimes, when im the only one awake in the darkness.

It's rare. But it still happens.



Have you ever had that feeling when you are walking in the darkness.

As you gaze up unto the floating orb, glowing in the darkness.

Have you ever wondered.

Which lonely soul yet gazes upon that same moon, distant but yet connected by this otherwordly planetary being.

The thought that goes through my head in such situations is often something like,


'I feel your sorrow, and I share it with you'.


It's not something which I distinctly think. It's just something thats felt without any need for considering.



Or maybe it's just me being abnormal.

Hehe.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Oh yar.

I remember myself saying i wanted some time away from all my coursemates. Cos im sick of them.

I hope theres nothing wrong with that, after all i think all of us need some time apart.

So i hope to spend some time away from them.

Including dota matches which honestly, i only still play for the sake of brotherhood since its becoming more of a pain rather then fun to play now for some reason.

I just want a break, where i dont have to do anything, and nothing is expected of me, and i dont have to be on time for wadever.

Chalet is still ok.

Gentiles

Since when was it regarded as wrong or unadvisable to be diligent in ones faith?

Since when has the right and proper way become the one looked down upon?!

Just like Father William said, they will make white as black and black as white, turning the values of this world upside down.

Well right now, i just pity those who look upon faith and religion like this. Dunno what is the problem.

It does not matter WHAT religion, as long as you RESPECT others and thier beliefs.

Against such people i find my tolerance wears thin sometimes, though i know i should have no contempt.

I should pray for them.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

1 week

Well finally PID project 3 is over and done with and thank goodness for that.

Actually, P3 was pretty good for me. Despite my CHINA partner and the constant bodily ailments, looking back, and seeing the final outcome, it was really a good experience.

It really reminded me of FODEV, that year 1 subject. Its fun when looking back. For P1 and P2 however...those are just painful. Terribly painful.

I am glad i survived and completed this project without any regret, unlike some of my previous projects where i feel unsatisfied with the outcome.

I am content.

I also went to Amplify fridays after a 3 week absence. It was held in St. Peter & Paul. The feeling was...different this time. And not because of the venue, but rather I am sure its because of the long absence from the grace of all those peoples company. But it still felt great. Got to meet new people, and more importantly, see the same old faces.

Ill put a picture of my furniture piece (with me inside, unfortunately).


My hair is tied in the picture so please, its doesnt normally look like that =)

I dont have any better quality pictures so...ill show more of other peoples work if i have the pictures in the near future.



Oh yeah, so after my P3 deadline, I now have a pathetic 1 week break. Thankfully theres gonna be a chalet.

Then its back to school again. Damn.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Patience

Patience is a virtue.

These past weeks, my patience has been put to the test.

Some people think i have no patience.

Some people think i have much patience.

But this much i know, it has been tested multiple times recently.

A friend of mine who has little patience tells me she prays for it every week.

I have been upsetting that patience of hers without fail now and then. Unintentionally of course.

She tells me. I must be the test given to her, and she will try one more time for tolerance.

I tell her i am sure the test cannot be so easy and so short. It is a test after all. It is never easy, and it is never just ONE MORE TIME.

And so the ordeal is the same for me. Constantly my patience has been put to the limit and together with this bout of sickness im experiencing, it is just so hard to go on without losing my ideals and morals.

I have been feeling lost and the feeling of guilt from drifting so far in such a short time is just making me want to forget about everything.

Forget about school. The endless gossip. The senseless conversations. The constant unease.

Everything is just clotting up my brain and somewhere deep inside guilt is lingering and chipping away at my conscience and part of my sanity with it.

I just need...to last awhile longer.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Friday. Sept 14th 2007

as ever, its been awhile since i updated.

life has been...eventful.

but i find it ever so hard to get the details down.

as long as i experience it and i remember the events that have happened, i feel like i have no need to inform the world of my life and experiences.

this blog no longer has much of any significance to me.

but i will still try to write. TRY.

because my writing skills are going down the drain, and cos i think it helps to put down some thoughts i have. thoughts that linger but dont stay for long you know, till some weeks or months later. and then they are gone again till who knows when.



i am reaching the end of my poly life in a few months time. maybe 4 or 5 months more? it might sound like a long period of time, but anyone who schools knows that it passes by faster then we realise.

frankly i want it to end. its not that i dislike my school. i just dislike the way some things are done. and its not to do with block teaching.

seriously. my course needs more open mindedness. and im not talking about the students.



ive been really slacking from my religious duties as well. ive been away for too long, been letting myself go unchecked. the ways of the world and of the spirit are truly too different.



till next time.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Thought of the day

I've come to realise.

It is not enough to simply love God and no one else.

Each of us must have that same love for our fellow humans that we have for God and ourselves.

[John 13:34-35]
<34> And now i give you a new commandment: love one another. As i have loved you, so you must love one another.<35> If you have love for one another, then everyone will know that you are my disciples.


I implore those who are interested to read [Matthew 5:43-48]

God, or The world

Which do you choose.



For those who dont know, i am so called "a new man (19 yr old young man?) in faith" now. After coming back from a church retreat, i feel renewed in my faith. After wandering in question and aimlessness for some years, walking away from the church trying to search my own path in life, yes, now i am back with God. And i am glad. But my journey has just begun. Weeks after the church retreat, i am back into the world as we know it. The harsh and sinful world. I am trying my best to adapt into my new life and to live with faith all the way with every living breath. But i must admit, it is not easy.



For those wondering why i've left this blog so stagnant, i've really lost my mood to blog. Theres nothing really compelling me to really get on with writing in this quiet blog of mine. Lately ive been thinking about stating my thoughts and views of the bible but i am just so lazy. Its not an excuse, definitely not. Its just a terrible fact.

The thoughts of reading the bible are often in my head during those lonely nights i so often have. Those damned 'emo' nights that so many of us know well enough. But the truth is, even though its on my mind, i never pick that bible up. I tried for some nights but i could not keep focus and over the days i just slowly read less...and less.

You know what. I am going to start tmrw. Or rather, this coming night. I will try my best and i know that God will help me and guide me along and keep me focused, as long as i just WANT TO read that bible.

Got to work on loving everyone as well. Loving just God is not enough. Have to love others as i would love Jesus as well.

Theres so much more going on in my head now but im gonna end off here for now.

Ill try to keep my life updated here in future too =)

Friday, May 25, 2007

I am really tired of caring about people who wouldnt bother giving me even half of that concern back.

Really, i am sick of it.



Always having to start a conversation,

Always having one sided conversation of experiences,

Always having to ask before im told anything.



It makes me feel like im just not needed.

Why do i always have to give a fuck.

Sometimes it really does suck having a conscience.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Riddle

Heres a riddle for all of you out there.



The Pope has it but he does not use it.
Your father has it but your mother uses it.
Nuns do not need it.
Your lady friend's husband has it and she uses it.

What is it?



For the answer, highlight in between the asteriks



*A Last Name*



i think its quite smart =)

Monday, May 14, 2007

Male Bitching

The following is a conversation between my good friend who shall be indentified as ANON. Cool name right. Basically, its me and him bitching about our dear boss.

All names except mind are edited. All emails cencored too!


Session Start: Monday, May 14, 2007
Arch...3 more working days, BIATCH!... (xxxxxxxxxxx@hotmail.com)
ANON (xxx@hotmail.com)

(7:35 PM) Arch:
hello boy
(7:35 PM) ANON:
yes boy
(7:35 PM) Arch:
today i went for the furniture talk
(7:35 PM) Arch:
and i sat next to bacus
(7:35 PM) Arch:
ahaha
(7:36 PM) Arch:
and *** (cencored) and the rest saw him oso
(7:36 PM) Arch:
and they all say he look like china man
(7:36 PM) Arch:
HAHAHA
(7:36 PM) ANON:
lol
(7:36 PM) ANON:
kns
(7:36 PM) Arch:
and *** say he looks like those very miser and pathetic guy
(7:36 PM) ANON:
LOL!
(7:36 PM) Arch:
DVD (also name edited) say her impression of him not so good now LOL
(7:37 PM) ANON:
LoL
(7:37 PM) ANON:
how come
(7:37 PM) Arch:
cos she always thought he is the tall and more manly type
(7:37 PM) Arch:
but in the end he like those very pathetic fella
(7:37 PM) Arch:
LOL
(7:37 PM) Arch:
not charming or wadever
(7:38 PM) Arch:
what they say all made me laugh alot ah
(7:38 PM) Arch:
but good lah, they see him then they dont like him
(7:38 PM) Arch:
lol
(7:39 PM) ANON:
LOl
(7:39 PM) ANON:
they pressed him down damn fast
(7:40 PM) ANON:
LoL
(7:40 PM) Arch:
HAHA
(7:40 PM) Arch:
i never say anything bad eh
(7:40 PM) Arch:
is thier own impression
(7:40 PM) Arch:
but what *** say about him is true
(7:40 PM) Arch:
haha
(7:40 PM) Arch:
eh btw
(7:40 PM) Arch:
he sitting next to jarrod lim
(7:40 PM) Arch:
and both of them all the way like making fun of people ah
(7:41 PM) Arch:
and *** say he can hear bacus and jarrod talking behind people back
(7:41 PM) Arch:
cos he sit in front of them
(7:48 PM) ANON:
lol
(7:49 PM) Arch:
and bacus say
(7:49 PM) Arch:
tp designers all useless
(7:49 PM) Arch:
lol
(7:49 PM) Arch:
*** heard
(7:53 PM)
Arch...3 more working days, BIATCH!... has changed his/her name to "Arch...some cheena looking foo'..."

(7:53 PM) ANON:
LoL
(7:53 PM) ANON:
isnt him one of them
(7:53 PM) ANON:
LOL
(7:53 PM) ANON:
haiz, finally he admit himself useless liao
(7:53 PM) ANON:
lOl
(7:54 PM) Arch:
lol
(7:54 PM) Arch:
but he never tell us eh
(7:54 PM) Arch:
he whispering to jarrod
(7:54 PM) Arch:
only *** heard
(7:54 PM) Arch:
i next to him oso didnt hear
(7:54 PM) Arch:
probably cos they leaning forward when talking
(7:56 PM) ANON:
lOl
(7:56 PM) ANON:
gay
(7:56 PM) Arch:
yeah lah
(7:56 PM) Arch:
so cos of that *** got VERY BAD impression of him
(7:56 PM) Arch:
LOL
(7:57 PM) ANON:
LOL
(7:57 PM) ANON:
who wouldnt
(7:57 PM) ANON:
see
(7:57 PM) ANON:
all along say him weird is correct
(7:57 PM) Arch:
hahahaa
(7:57 PM) Arch:
HAHAHA
(7:57 PM) ANON:
just feel he is weird. kinda eccentric lah
(7:57 PM) Arch:
i was telling ***, after hearing all thier comment, i can rightfully say all the bad things already, cos actually i hold back cos dont want to give them too bad an impression of bacus
(7:58 PM) ANON:
LOL
(7:58 PM) ANON:
no need to hold back one lah
(7:59 PM) Arch:
HAHA
(7:59 PM) ANON:
intuition tells you is bad means correct one
(7:59 PM) Arch:
i was telling *** CONFIRM you will say that HAHAHAA
(7:59 PM) Arch:
i know he is jiat lat
(7:59 PM) ANON:
like me. WEIRD AND ECCENTRIC
(7:59 PM) Arch:
but i dont want to give *** and DVD an impression from my words, i want them to see for themself
(7:59 PM) Arch:
lol
(7:59 PM) ANON:
LoL
(7:59 PM) Arch:
i think wierd and eccentric not good enough
(7:59 PM) Arch:
i feel he is unprofessional and not boss like
(8:00 PM) Arch:
like an auntie
(8:00 PM) Arch:
talk too much cock
(8:00 PM) ANON:
yaa
(8:00 PM) Arch:
look down on people
(8:00 PM) Arch:
never guide us
(8:00 PM) Arch:
talk behind people back
(8:00 PM) Arch:
MISER
(8:00 PM) ANON:
the very starting, working a few times felt boring already
(8:00 PM) ANON:
cannot even work together
(8:00 PM) Arch:
lol
(8:01 PM) ANON:
hear that we working together when he away. face change
(8:01 PM) ANON:
ku ku sia
(8:01 PM) Arch:
lol
(8:01 PM) ANON:
all along i only trying my best to please him
(8:01 PM) Arch:
you know why anot
(8:01 PM) ANON:
kns
(8:01 PM) Arch:
MUST BE COS
(8:01 PM) Arch:
must be cos
(8:01 PM) Arch:
he dont want to pay us more
(8:01 PM) Arch:
we turn up during those days he have to pay
(8:01 PM) Arch:
so he of course turn face
(8:01 PM) ANON:
give out all my best then still kena nag by him
(8:02 PM) ANON:
then thats very niao of him
(8:02 PM) Arch:
thats what i think ah...no other reason what...
(8:02 PM) Arch:
LOL
(8:02 PM) ANON:
if his company is doing well. got regconition some more
(8:02 PM) ANON:
420 plus plus
(8:02 PM) Arch:
his company regocnition is not high you know
(8:02 PM) Arch:
thats what i believe
(8:03 PM) ANON:
machiam give liao one painting in the gallery will suddenly vanished like that
(8:03 PM) Arch:
LOL
(8:03 PM) ANON:
like pay us extra will die like that lor
(8:03 PM) ANON:
his pay ar
(8:03 PM) Arch:
hahahaa
(8:03 PM) Arch:
yeah
(8:04 PM) ANON:
cant even cover my meals over there lah
(8:04 PM) ANON:
transport the worst
(8:04 PM) Arch:
yeah agreed
(8:04 PM) Arch:
eh boy
(8:04 PM) Arch:
do you mind if i take the convo and put on my blog
(8:04 PM) Arch:
LOL
(8:04 PM) Arch:
i think damn funny
(8:04 PM) Arch:
but i will cencore all names
(8:04 PM) Arch:
except mine
(8:11 PM)
Arch has changed his/her personal message to "My design company boss doesnt know "who is SeymourPowell"

(8:11 PM) Arch:
eh ANON
(8:12 PM) Arch:
you got read what i asked?
(8:12 PM) ANON:
yaya
(8:12 PM) ANON:
go ahead lor
(8:12 PM) Arch:
lol ok
(8:12 PM) ANON:
lOl
(8:12 PM) Arch:
yayyy
(8:12 PM) ANON:
just a common convo
(8:12 PM) ANON:
lOl
(8:12 PM) Arch:
XD



If anyone who reads this has some kind of big disagreement with me, allow me to say this.

*No, YOU are wrong. *

Even my boss loves to bitch. So why cant i!?

XD

Friday, May 11, 2007

Sensibility

Talking a fucking pain.

Meeting is a fucking bore.

Bothering is a fucking chore.



At times like these, what can a sensibly fucked up guy like me say?




It sucks having a conscience!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

HELLO THAR IT BEEN LONGLONG!!!

Hello thar. It been long, long.

Yes, this blog has been dead for a long time, except for that pathetic chatbox by the side.
Thank you to all who have bothered posting comments there!
The last important one i can remember is Li, who seems to always be there hmm.

So what possessed me to start writing again? well thanx to Li.

After talking to her i had remembered an old blog entry she wrote just for me. sweetest thing i ever read written on my existance, i think.

Well, even though its sweet, i didnt read it thoroughly, since i always felt her entries are too blocked up with text so i keep skipping stuff and just scan through the words.

Scanning through that sweet entry again led me to read my old posts in this very own blog.

And i must (shamefully) admit, i really do find my writing quite...interesting.

The emo ones i find quite interolable now, but alot of the others really brought back memories. Of the events that unfolded in the past, as well as the way i would write then down in my own way. I had forgotten all of them.



So after reading some of my older entries, i felt like why not i start again. The motivation came back. Suddenly i had a reason to blog.

I wonder if moses still reads. Maybe Benson knows.



Anyways, this is just a post to alert the WORLD of my return.

Youve been waiting long long havent you?

Sarcasm of course, just in case you dont know... =)