Stats

6 mother fucking projects.

5 barely enough hours of sleep for a month.

1 A2 page of USELESS torchlight idea.

4 days spent on A2 rendering.

12 approximate months reduced life span thanx to spraying.

100 dollars worth of copic markers.

0 progress on drafting handphone.

4 c+ grades recieved from richard wee.

1 very undead Archfreak.

Rant

right now, im sitting in my room using the laptop.

after a long day in school as an I-Guide. (thats the name of the school guide in TP.)

dont ask me what the 'I' stands for. i myself have no fucking idea.

for some strange reason, im feeling quite...fustrated and pissed now...



so. its the end of the 2nd day of TP open house.



hmm...i think the I-Guides did a great job.

and so did the D-Guides.

and no. not cos im in I-Guides or cos im in Design school.



i went to some of the schools.

IT and AS were pretty alright.

but...whie BUSINESS had thier numbers...i could see that quite some of them did not even bother at all with the sec school students, and my friends have exprienced that as well.



engine school...i didnt step foot in there.

but, apparently, even the principal of engineering school agreed that it was a lack of space in engine school.

cos they spread themselves too far out in such a big area within thier school.

so students felt discouraged about going all the way in when there were so few booths in such a huge distance.



ANYWAYS.

i felt the IMD/MOI room at design space was pretty damn good.

i liked the live illustrations and sketchbooks especially.

those were the things that i thought were realli interesting.

i found myself wanting to tell the students that they SHOULD go there, just to take a look at the kind of stuff we design students do in TP, as well as to KNOW that we ARE, DAMN RIGHT THE COOLEST there is out there.

thats the kind of thing that brings people into TP DESIGN.



even though i was an I-Guide, i found myself very partial to my own school.

in the sense that, i realli wanted to bring the students to DES rather then other schools.

so i ended up being something like a design guide too, seeing as how i noe the layout and the general view of what each course is. (cos i go around hearing other course explain over and over)

i dunno how many times i had to repeat myself though.

it was abit straineous on the voice.



oh yeah.

i also participated in the TP MASS DANCE.

my partner was Hui Leng.

it was pretty damn funny that some sec school students got caught in the middle of all the dancing.

needless to say, they were laughing all the way, not knowing what to do.

but hey! we got them to participate dancing the CHICKEN DANCE



the funniest thing i saw was the reaction of a guy when i told him the sculpture on display in PID section was made of wood.

he went 'are u FUCKING SERIOUS?' 0_0 *begins feeling sculpture in amazement*



LAST THING.

i just wanna list the things i feel are what caused me to feel pretty pissed now.



the guy who THREATEN to report my name if i continue 'slacking' during duty. fuck man. just cos i standing at design school for awhile looking for people to help DOESNT MEAN IM SLACKING. and THREATENING doesnt exactly command respect to me. it onli made me label him as a total fucktard.
,
another guy who is simply getting on my nerves. i dare say he feels the same. i shant say more about him.
, and
the girl who is simply SO ANNOYING. it almost makes me WANT TO REGRET the whole thing. THATS how annoying.

and if anyone thinks i have a prob with them, then heres something someone told me before.

*dont (fucking) assume.*

Dust to Dust

school assignments are a killer when ur in design.

especally for my kin. *COUGH COUGH*

which is why i have nothing much to update now.



lets just say, the following weeks will be busy and i wont have time to think of anything personal much.

ill probrably be thinking more of ideas for my work.



ive been told that im losing the sort of...sparkle in my eyes.

or that...i seem tired, listless, or somehow blank in spirit.

well damn.

all i can say is.

its gonna be that way for some time!

just gotta live with it. just gotta deal with it.



and about that certain human.

all i want to say is.

BAH.

and

MEH.

thats all the matter deserves. XD

Tag!

near the end of midnite, i tagged offensively to defend my friend, rachel, from an anonymous tagger.

now.

those who have been following this blog.

you would noe my dislike for ANONYMOUS TAGGERS who want to say bad stuff.



i DO realise that the anonymous tagger might be a friend of mine.

but STILL.

being a friend of mine doesnt mean ill SPARE THE PERSON a piece of my MIND.



the person might hate me. or the impression of me might change.

i accept it! cos that who i am.

what u see is who i am in this situation.



if that person had stated out thier name as least...i would not have been offensive.

i would have treated the person with respect and listen.

but the moment the person decides to give negative comment...even if its slight...its intolerable...

to state ur dislike behind a mask. a wall. where u noe ull be HARMLESS.

how would u respect someone like that?



thats all.

Meh

alritey...

so i read her blog.

*OMG why am i doing this again. goodness sakes.*



if i could have that chance to be just a friend once again.

i wouldnt hesitate.



after all.

i still remember that promise.

that promise of friendship.

unless im the only one who remembers.



suddenly im getting the vibes that me typing this out is still pointless in the end.

i wonder why.

Change

now.

i wish to write about a certain thing my old friend of mine has stated in his own blog, about me.

"i saw victor online. lol. hm.. to me, he has changed quite a bit. lol. his word seems to lack the same authority than in the past. as in... now, there is more sarcasm and less weight. to me, he is still my good friend, and will always be, but... i worry. haha."


just a little background information here.

the person who wrote that quoted statement is my friend, Joel Wang Shou Zhi.

he has been my friend since i was sec 1, when we were both in the same class.

i still remember the time i met him because i wanted to read the neon genesis evangelion comic book he had.



in that quoted statement, my dear friend has mentioned that i have changed to become less authouritative and that my words seem to have less weight.

what he means its that i have become more aloof in my nature, using sarcasm for wrong purposes, and not having the same charm and steadiness i once had.



i utterly agree.

to compare myself now with my self of my past is a shame i endure with disgrace.

i have no idea how to bring myself back to that point.



let me just say...it all started when i came into polytechnic.

it must either be the company ive been having, or the environment. (please correct me if im wrong)

for the company, i doubt its because of that.

after all, ive seen my fair share of wise people as well as noisy twits.



Temasek Poly Design School

i have come to believe that it is because of the extreme change of work and stress that i have become less of what i used to be.

the feeling where...anyone of these people might be ur competition and being better then them is like the goal.

i think it gets to the point where human nature can get nasty sometimes.

do u people agree?



another long time friend of mine (who is also my most trusted and loved friend), siti nursyuaibah, has also agreed that i have become more...harsh and unkind.

basically in her words, im no longer the 'mister nice guy' i used to be.

i used to have a reputation for being the nice guy.

but apparently, thats no longer the case im sure.



it gets me down sometimes.

Say

all i want to say is....


YOU SAY LAH!
NOOOO YOOOU SAAAAY!!! I DUNNO HOW TO SAY LAH.
SAY LAAAAH!!! QUICKLY SAY.

those 3 lines, multiplied by 3.

over and over.



thank you.

Popularity

since we are on this topic now.

lets see...

popularity.



apparently, i have given the wrong impression that i want to be as famous as possible.

believe it or not, the truth is,

if possible, i would prefer to remain low profile.

maybe some people know that.

some people like my sec school friends might know.



but now i think its quite disagreeable, cos i cant seem to lay low in design school.



this blog got its 'popularity' from my previous stupid posts.

the very previous post is merely my own sick sense of humour.

admittedly my posts are quite sarcarstic and at times damn stupid.

not as if i want my blog to be famous.

am i supposed to change my blog add?

or am i supposed to post only about boring stuff so no body will read?



im thinking, my past post, (THAT post) is definitely worth hating me for. no doubts.

but...the very previous post?

sure, its sarcarstic, but i dont think it will spark a war.

of course, i bet some people will say im damn lame or childish or wadever.

thats what happens when i write in my blog.

in truth, (i dunno if im correct) i think MOI also has its own sick sense of humour. so i doubt it will anger them.

unless i post something thats stupidly offensive or wrong.



for some, they may get pissed cos they very focused on avoiding conflict and cant believe i would be so foolish to go make joke like this, lest i start a riot.

it makes me think that, if i want to be sarcarstic in my blog, i better make sure no one but myself can understand it.

well ok. damn. that sucks.

its realli too bad then.



peace

Amazing

amazing!

today i had the chance to find out that in the OTC (Orienation Training Camp), news of my blog was still being conversed about!

i got this information from a friend outside of design school.

thats freakin crazy! OUTSIDE OF DESIGN SCHOOL!

out of NO WHERE he talked to me about what happen in my blog.

and im like...*DONNNNNG* 0_0 'how the hell did u know about that?!'

to which he replied, some design people talking about it in the camp.

what the hell man.

i realli dunno what to say.

dunno if i should LAUGH or just be AMAZED.

ok in the end i did both. laugh in amazement -.-



so the thing is.

this blog's reputation is indeed beyond my expectations. (much to my shock)

probrably those people didnt say out my blog address.

but still, the thought that they would still want to continue talking about it...

its quite amusing to me.



i would like to thank those who made this blog so POPULAR.

and who can i thank for this?

undoubtedly, i believe this thanx should go to...

THE IMD/MOI FLAMERS!!!

woo u guys rock, thats why i love MOI so much.

onli you guys would put so much effort into ur flaming. such effort is realli commendable.

thanx thanx thanx.



now, im not saying its those guys who are talking about it in the camp.

but all the commotion can be linked back to when the flaming started.

so i think the thanx is well deserved yeah. hoho.

XD