God, or The world

Which do you choose.



For those who dont know, i am so called "a new man (19 yr old young man?) in faith" now. After coming back from a church retreat, i feel renewed in my faith. After wandering in question and aimlessness for some years, walking away from the church trying to search my own path in life, yes, now i am back with God. And i am glad. But my journey has just begun. Weeks after the church retreat, i am back into the world as we know it. The harsh and sinful world. I am trying my best to adapt into my new life and to live with faith all the way with every living breath. But i must admit, it is not easy.



For those wondering why i've left this blog so stagnant, i've really lost my mood to blog. Theres nothing really compelling me to really get on with writing in this quiet blog of mine. Lately ive been thinking about stating my thoughts and views of the bible but i am just so lazy. Its not an excuse, definitely not. Its just a terrible fact.

The thoughts of reading the bible are often in my head during those lonely nights i so often have. Those damned 'emo' nights that so many of us know well enough. But the truth is, even though its on my mind, i never pick that bible up. I tried for some nights but i could not keep focus and over the days i just slowly read less...and less.

You know what. I am going to start tmrw. Or rather, this coming night. I will try my best and i know that God will help me and guide me along and keep me focused, as long as i just WANT TO read that bible.

Got to work on loving everyone as well. Loving just God is not enough. Have to love others as i would love Jesus as well.

Theres so much more going on in my head now but im gonna end off here for now.

Ill try to keep my life updated here in future too =)