Activity

Activity

so.

i havent updated in some time.

compared to some past posts, the time in between each update is much longer. a month each update sometimes.

but suddenly i feel like the last time ive updated is getting so long. like my blog is getting stale.

this is probrably cos of so much blog activity im experiencing now. not necessarily talking about my blog.

anyways.

life is so hectic now. assignments, projects, deadlines...

i believe i still have time to relax. in fact i sometimes just sit down and slack a little. but slacking is not a fun thing. im onli slacking cos work is so tiring. im not playing cos im too haunted by my conscience. im not sleeping cos i think i should work. relaxing has now become a stressful thing. heh.

another thing.

i no longer feel devoid of meaning anymore. i find that...theres stuff to look forward to now...either that, or i no longer have time to care about all that, but to just keep going onwards. haha. i doubt my life has become SO miserable. so i believe its cos of the people around me, and the work that spurs me on, rather then dragging my soul down. true...i hate all this work. its like a flood of activity thats drowning me. but this rush gets me alive. to get on my feet and move. and whats more, there are people there with u. to suffer and stand with friends.

is that not the best thing i could ask for. im not talking about the suffering (damned sadists). its just, having good friends each day to keep ya company. to just have fun even while working hard. surely i need not explain further with words?

im not say close to many of these friends. its quite typical in design school eh? or maybe even in the whole poly. there are practically no close friends. but i have friends, that even though not close, they respect each other and help each other. u dont need to be close to someone to enjoy urself (close i mean, share ur deep dark secrets). u just need to have someone u feel comfortable and good with. all of us respect and support each other. thats whats most important. thats what makes me feel happy. haha...i sound pretty lame. i think. oh well.

its tough not having friends to talk to when u have probs. realli tough. its like ur so alone. so all i have to say for those u feel that way. dont complain that u feel alone. go tell someone nice (which would be a nice friend) how u feel and make that friendship stronger. isnt that how close friends are formed? u can find a good friend, but to have a great friend, u have to explore into the person, and to do that, u need to exchange information with the person. its quite logical. humans want something in return for another thing. socialising is the exchange of information.

p.s.: i preach too much...