uneasy

uneasy

i just read her online diary...its kind of disturbing...

after reading my bros' (not my blood bro) and hers' online diary, i am getting a feeling that...there is something deeper to them...

i think that my bro actually develpoed some feelings for her...(well...something like that lah)...during the past few days, but seems like he forsook his feelings to study and not to hurt anyone...

and as for her...it seems she cant decide between the 2 of us cos we both have such concern for her...she even said that if one of us dont treat her well, she will go to the other one...that realli disturbed me...i can onli hope she is not serious or wasnt in her rite mind...

i am quite sure of these 'assumptions'...while some people may say its just assumptions...my so called assumptions are usually true...

i do not noe what to think of this event...on one side i feel that im glad my bro forsook his feelings but on the other hand...isnt me being this way kind of...selfish and posessive...i do not noe...

as for her...i have always felt that she simply cant decide on matters of the heart and that she falls for guys easily...i was even told by another bro to be wary of such a thing...in fact, i was aware of this all along...but...perhaps i tot it wouldnt be such a big deal

lol...in the end wadever i said may just be all speculation...oh well...

thoughts of a paranoid

p.s.: my heart is troubled but still intact. hope someone understands

*EDIT*

ok...i just talked to her...and i feel much better now...wadever i said pre to this edit doesnt apply to me anymore...lol...

anyways...i tot id update on more stuff lah...after all its like...boring writing such a short entry...

well ok...prelims are coming soon...and woo hoo...I AM READY FOR A.MATHS!!! BRING IT ON MS D. YONGSTER!!!

alriiiite...anyways...i havent studied for anything else other then A,maths so i am a little screwed indeed...the science practicals are coming soon and i dunno where the fuck is my chemistry lab notes...u noe the one which tells u what the results indicate...so i am a little worried

and i just read nurul's latest entry...she was talking about love...

well...love...to me love is the single greatest mystery...its like...the purpose of our lives are all about love...nurul said that she didnt realli feel love, not much even from family...but isnt there a love between friends? to me, how a person is depends on the love the parents give...up until one is totally independent of them. then friends come next when a person can think independently for oneself (for most people this is when one nears sec 1). friends are the secondary guide that moulds a person. then the 3rd is the sexual love...love between a male and a female (or otherwise...*AHEM*)...this sexual love however, cannot be predeicted as to when one feels it as everyone is different...of course, as im a religious person...i believe the love that nvr leaves us is God's love...but the love that affects us MOST is the love felt by other mortals (at least to me)...

love is so random and unpredictable...thats y us humans too are so...strange and wierd...all because of the love we recieve...in case any of u didnt noe, u are onli who u are now by mainly (1) the love u recieve and (2) EVERY SINGLE THING U SENSE and to a much lesser extent is (3) our genes from our parents...

i think ill blabber one more about this in my next entry...gtg now...

p.s.: embrace love and u too shall be embraced by it...

time at end of edit - 2042 hrs

close shop

close shop

ok im not gonna update for a looooong time...cos prelims are coming

sorry to all those who care...

before i leave...ill tpye all the stuff i wanna type

memories are sad to remember,yet nice to reminescience...y do we wish to hold on to them? cos we are part of these memories. lets keep going on with these memories, cos they hold together u and me. i love all these people, no matter how bad they are, how they treat me. deep down in my heart i would not want to hurt them. y do i behave this way? y do i sometimes wish i wouldnt be so nice? is this normal? is this a sign of weakness? all these questions when will they be answered. y am i abused by those i care for, looked down upon by an equal, not being shown any compassion when i should be. should i let this seed of hate plant itself? or should i forsake my being for another? is there realli a reward for me if i do good. then suddenly i realise im not thinking of the reward...the reawrd is recieved when i noe ive done the rite thing.

a note to all those who are unkind, narrow minded, harsh, intolerant: y are u so unwise and foolish...cant u c u make people despise u...cant u c ur friends struggle to protect ur name. think and understand ur fellow man. everthing is not about u. u are not the best. u are not the highest. so dont behave like u are or the true highest will strike u down and keep u in your place. u are just another person, not higher nor lower so y not bahave that way...

yes im feeling irritated, agitated, fustrated. but theres nothing i can do. wantin to strike yet not wanting to. then tension strains.

stop putting ur fake acts. ur not smart. ur not intelligent. ur not great. ur not high. noe ur place.

this whole entry is just a way to vent myself. so let me be. dont ask me y i typed this.

p.s.: no matter what i still love u...u noe who u are =)

out loving

out loving

ok...today, i went out with my gf to watch a movie, twins effect 2. how about i write a review?

alriiiite...twins effect 2 on the whole is not that bad...its about this polite and nice guy who, while appears to be some lowly peasent guy, is in actual fact a KING. and what the hell even his sword is named Excaliber(cough*RIP-OFF*cough)...and basically he is the one who frees the kingdom from oppresion...go find the rest of the story by urself...bahahaha...theres lots of fighting and quite alot of romance going on as well...though the love between the characters is always 'assisted' by these unexpected events...for me, the moral of the movie is that love is nvr a straight path, its the twists and turns that make love that way it is...or maybe im just wierd? meh...i give it a 3 out of 5...

anyways...before i saw the movie, i met siti and gang + charles and j.lo and the 2 "via's" (silVIA and erVIA) and sharon (who else i missed out i dont care) at the tampinese mrt control station...well the moment i saw them i went over to say hi of course...then what the hell!!! siti was like...'hey victor where u going huh? going on a date izzit? with whooooooo???'...so i replied 'errr...just a friend!!!'...which was of course rebuted by not onli siti but like 3 other voices? argh!!! gossip queens they are!!!

so i just said bye to them cos they were going to board the train to wherever...and the moment i turned around to continue my wait for her she was rite there behind me! she had in fact saw me appraoching siti and gang and had stayed away from view for awhile...thank goodness she did that or who noes what those gossip queens would have said!!! she was wearing a black dress (kinda) and she looked great...

so yar...we went and sat somewhere, passed the time, then went to c the movie...

after the movie, we walked around and found a place to sit, then we talked for 2 hrs from 3.30pm to 5.30pm...just talked and talked about stuff...then she had to leave...oh well...had a great time with her...yeah!

when she left i went to west plaza and played Halo on Xbox...greatest shooting game ive played yet though i think Doom 3 should be better now...

then ivan asked me if i wanted to watch Alien vs. Predator with him and joel...and as much as i wanted to watch i COULDNT...its my parents lah...so particular about going out...haiz!!! i think ill go watch the movie alone next saturday for fun...

oh btw...physics today was difficult...i think 1/2 the class will fail...kudos to the class! and im surely on of the failures...damned

p.s.: i have a bad feeling im gonna flunk my prelims...urgh!!!

orals...

orals...

ok...today i did my orals...woah i was realli nervous before the orals...but then...wtf...we guys who were taking the orals had to wait SO FREAKIN LONG for each person that by the time it was my turn, i was too bored to be nervous anymore...and the examiners took such a long time for each person that apart from the one talking to the examiners, there were 2 people still in the waiting list, and 1 more just starting to c the oral picture...

so finally, after a long time, i was called upon by the examiners, who were 2 ladies in thier 20's...they were quite friendly and onli one of them talked (she had a british accent).

and so i started...and ended...

the whole thing was OK i guess...did 3 minor mistakes for the reading, and i dont think i read that clearly...haiz...for the picture, i at first describe lots of stuff and explained by tots to them...i said quite alot....until i an out of ideas...and ended up saying 'umm...uhhhh....errrr'...so of course, the lady asked me stuff...she asked me about 3 questions for the picture...in which is said more stuff for each...then came to conversation...i dare say the conversation went pretty well...of the 3 parts the conversation was the easiest for me...just relax and speak your mind...nothing is wrong as long as its not out of point...

then, after the whole oral thing, went to jerreme's b.day thing...its was pathetic lah actually...me going there just made jerreme look bad cos he was like onli despo to go with gals and he was so lame while i was reprimanding his behavior to gals...and chu hue seemed to be like looking down on him...then even make fun of him say when it was HER b.day she treated all her friends...so it was like a super hint saying he is a pathetic ass...bahahahaha!

then i was like...non-stop making the gals laugh...sharon was surprisingly laughing quite alot towards the jokes...anyways we waited for sarah and then went to pastamania to eat pasta (duh)...jerreme sat oppostie sarah and i sat opposite sharon. chu was was sitting at sharons side...i ate tuna and bacon pasta...it was delish...though i ate too fast...cos it was like...sharon and me had to bend down to eat our pasta so it wouldnt go all over the place, and it was like...pretty awkward/wierd? hard to explain lah...then after i ate finished i faced jerreme and told him 'i ate too fast...but i was feeling uneasy so i wanted to finish quick'...

well after those words i turned back and sharon tilted her head down and smiled meekly to herself (as in the type of smile where a gal smiles with lips closed in a shy manner)!!! i was shocked to c her in that kind of 'shy' expression...cos she must have also felta little uneasy...hahahahah! so it was fun cos of the gals...esp sharon, but no i dont have feelings for her ok...lol...i am a loyal lover...hehehe

p.s.: I HAVEEE TOOOO STUDDDDYYYYYYYYYYY!!! I AM TOTALLY LAGGING!!!!
p.p.s.: always thinking of my dear gf...*sheepish smile*

i am feeling to heat...

i am feeling the heat...

ok...today was the release of the O lvl results for mother tongue...and well, some people cried, some of them my good friends...

most people didnt cry cos they got bad results, most people cried cos they got OK results but still NOT-SO-OK to them cos they want higher grades...
but thennnn fortunately for me and ivan, we didnt need to feel nervous/anxious/scared cos we both take chinese syllabus 'B' (easier chinese for u young/stupid people...)

so basically i was like...prtty heck care about the results cos u noe...IM not getting them...y should I care...(u noe what i mean rite people?)

but it wasnt until i tot about how close the orals are that i got worried...its like...what if i screw up my orals...then isnt the wasted FOREVER? what if i screw up my maths, and sci? am i gonna end up crying too?

so now...im a littttle worried...maybe time to start studying huh...

uh...anyways i played badminton with joel as usual today...and i pretty much SUCKED!!! ergh!!! today is totally not good...i dunno y!!! keep missing, keep hitting out...dunno if its cos of this stiff neck (which is freakin pain actually) or cos im just plain tired?

aahhh...nvrm...

p.s.: anyone willing to study maths after school? totally need to revise...

AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

so uh...I AM NOT OBSESSED WITH BREASTS!!! >_<

so who believes me? (i am doubtful considering my 'friends'...urgh...)

p.s.: anyone? lol...

boredom ensues...

boredom ensues...

y do the holidays have to end so soon...its not enough...haiz...

well today is singapores national day...the day when malaysians are jealous of our parade, the day when $100k is blown on fireworks, the day when when freakin elite marchers stut thier stuff and the day when overplayed national songs are sung over, and over, and over...

*as per norm*

so nothing much happened today...my body is aching from going to the gym yesterday...tmrw i have A maths classes...9 to 12...wtf? y is my class so SLOW!!! argh!!! cant we go faster...i wish we could but apparently some people dont intake stuff fast enough...haiz! but A.maths is pretty fun now cos i can understand and do stuff (AT LAST).

and um...i feel theres more to say...but then...theres oso nothing left to be said...i am not sure y...

oh btw ive had this nick in my msn for awhile...i found it particularly interesting...
'your pain is my pleasure, so come...BLEED FOR ME!!!'
lol...yes it sounds sick no doubt but i like it...

p.s.: breasts are baby feeders! not sex toys! >_<

ndp EH!

ndp Eh!

ok! so lets c...today was the school celebration of national day! i tot it would pretty much suck but hey actually it was pretty good!

ok first is the as-per-norm marching routine...and after that is the cheerleading...ok although the cheerleading wasnt particularly good but dang there was a certain chinese gal...and since the cheerleaders were wearing PARTICULARLY tight shirts *v-neck to be precise* , i simply could not help but look at the CURVATURES of that chinese girl! yes people...i noe i sound like a damned pervert but u noe IM A GUY!!! SPARE ME!!! ITS IN MY BLOOD! so yeah...teH HOTZ0RZ! (or otherwise...DAMNED HOT!)

then later we went to the hall, watched the performance. u noe what this yrs performance was pretty good u noe...yeah...esp the dancing! (no thanx to charmaine though. slut factor UP!) mr tharmen and the malay guys were very entertaining indeed. then there was the 'most innovative way to wear ur skarf' competition...well what the hell...there was this guy wearing it covering his face and head like some terrorist...and he introduced himself and OSAMA BIN LADEN. well done man...funniest shit yet...esp when he stabbed mr tharmen with a pen...damned funny!

then ok i think thats all...went to ying hui house...and dammit HE READ THE MSGS CONCERNING ME AND THAT GIRL!!! >_<

and ok...i had this problem about xixiang, to so called 'officiate' that we no longer like each other...people who nvr experience this wont noe what i mean lah. so anyways, i had this prob of telling her cos u noe its pretty awkward...but joel told me that she wrote in her blog that SHE LIKES ANOTHER GUY! so i was like...YES! WOO HOO! GREAT! hahaha! now i dont have to deal with her anymore! yeah...!

so yar...basically thats it...still so loving that certain girl...hahaha! she is so gorgeous/cute/pretty in my eyes...shes hot...hahaha okok i wont talk nonsense! >_<

p.s.: nurul and feli, if u still wanna noe who she is i might be more willin to tell u now...hehehe i dunno just feel more open about it

FUN DAY!!!

FUN DAY!!!

alriteee!!! today i remember clearly...lets begin!!!

ok so i woke up for school, didnt study for e.maths pract exam AT ALL but too late anyways so i fuck care...i went to school realli early together with feli in the bus, but i just made fun of her all the way basically even till school...irritated her till she dont wanna talk to me...muahahahah

so after some crapping around all of us went to the hall to proceed with the exam, and my goodness we had to yet so long in the hall before the exam started cos there are some other students from 4E who are taking 'o' lvl exam e.maths too...so wadever, just did the paper...

well what can i say...the paper was freakin damn easy!!! mr kek realli went easy on us this time cos i even had loads of free time (1/2 hr) to check my work and almost all of the questions were pretty simple...but towards the end of the exam, thanx to the milk AND coffee i drunk in the morning, my bladder was seriously about to explode. so what i tried shaking it off, holding it in...for actually about 1.5 hrs already before i couldnt take it anymore...mr kek was kind and let me go put out the fire

then after the freakin easy paper, i went with fukun, ying hui, thomas, j.chan, and rohaizad to whitesands and eash of us ate a morning meal...its great having a meal with good friend...but still pretty wadever lah...muahahaha

then after all of THAT i went home...and waited...in anticipation to go out with 'HER' (not xi xiang and no im not gonna tell ANYONE OF U). yeah i went to the beach with her...man she is gorgeous in my eyes...ok i will SPARE THE DETAILS!!! lol....no more!!! but i had a greaaaat time with 'her'...

so yeah mainly today was great cos of a certain gal...ahahaa...i just couldnt resist not mentioning her in my blog...hehehe

ps: pls refrain from bugging me about who the gal is...it would save me the energy of telling u to leave me alone =)

drag...

drag...

 

ok...so i havent blogged in a long time...what can i say, its been boring these days ok...and im too lazy to type whats been happening...

 

so lets c...i have nothing much to type cos i cant remember much id like to say...ill just start with today non?

 

TODAY

 

ok...today was rahman's b.day...and what the hell, some of my classmates bought him track shoes! hahaha! well he deserves it cos hes excellent in running...yeap...rahman is realli liked by the 'noisy' people of the class.

 

then...after school still got fucked up SS remedial...t'was so boring!!!...didnt bother doing anything...and after THAT, fabian smeared cake onto rahman's face and later, anyone within reach of him...i of course, not wanting to be stained, quickly left in haste in the opposite direction of the chaos and luckily, i escaped unharmed...

 

so i ended up helping the history students to set up this 'THING' in the library...go check it out urself people...ITS REALLI WORK SEEING COS THERE ARE BABY PICS OF TEACHERS. however, to my disapointment, there wasnt any dorris yong or sarala rajan pictures!!! SADNESS!!

 

oh well...anyways tmrw is maths pract exam, wtf? lets fail together!!! woo hoo!!

 

rajan is teH rox0rz

rajan is teH rox0rz

 

alriiiite...so im now in the computer lab in school...xi xiang is like one row behind me and shes not in a good mood...lol...

 

anyways...today the guys in my class are supposed to have english oral examinations and apparently as ive been kicked out of class, i have to give her a legit reason as to why i have the audacity to even do the examination with her an the examiner...so of course...i didnt hve a damn choice...i actually recieved some other ideas to still be able to do the oral from my friends...ideas such as asking mrs shirley goh to let me take the oral exam with HER class instead (idea from joel)...and another was to tell mr ng chee keong himself about how 'unreasonable' mrs rajan was (idea from fukun)... but then i tot the chee keong idea was going too far and after all, i just have to give her a reason...so i tot 'ehhhh...ill just go c her and be DONE WITH IT...'

 

so i did

 

she saw me and in fact, she was kind. she even humoured me a little and spoke to me with sense, saying that (in the words of rajan) 'YOU have the brains to even get a distinction in english but you're just too damned lazy!! if YOU cant be bother then y should i, ahh victorrr? do u understand what im trying to say anot victorr?!?'. well of course i undersood her...i have quite a good logic chip implanted on me the moment i was born..

so she said she would give me a chance...i would have to find out the work she gave to the class and i would have to do it by monday...on tuesday i would be welcome in the class and from then on, if i ever was (from rajans mouth) too damn lazy or cant be bother, then i could say goodbye to my 20%. well now, thats ok i guess? hehe...

 

yes so rajan is ok after all...one should not be too quick to judge...she also told me that she is strict for a reason, cos she cares about us but once i went too far she decided that thats as far as she can go to care...haha

 

so now xi xiang is still at the row behind me talking to her friends...meh...

 

tmrw theres practise exam for CHEMISTRY and apparently I HAVENT STUDIED FOR ANYTHING!!! i dunno if i can absorb everthing in time...agh...

 

 

hey shortaaay! its yo birthday!

alrite...today just so happens to be my birthday...hoo ha...

hmm...ok lets c i failed my e maths vectors test...oh well i was expecting it already cos i didnt pay attention to mr kek...then eng i went out of class...did some of the E maths test corrections and some A maths revision then drew a pic of what i have in mind for my graduation outfit...hehehe...

after recess was geog...nothing much...boring...then physics...even more boring...didnt bother listening realli...haiz...

ok by this time i had 1 b.day letter from farhana, 1 b.day letter and *stuff* from chingling...i was thinking i had to collect present from my sec 2 friends...but then when i was going back to my class after attendance taking in the hall my sec 2 friends ambush me and gave me a present!!! the present was shared among a group of them (including xi xiang)...so i was like...oh ok i was waiting for it...but later i found out that xi xiang was the one who did everything and plan what to buy...so i was so surprised...cos u noe i tot xixiang didnt care much for me anymore...but apparently not! so i was kinda happy too but i was confused of what to think of her from then...haiz...

'to be, or not to be? that is thy (damned) question'

yar so ill c lah...haizzzz...confused over gals...im most worried that my judgment may be blinded by these females...

p.s. thanx to all the humans who wished me happy birthday today...
p.p.s if ur reading this xi xiang i wanna let u noe i am TRULY THANKFUL *respect*

lets play the failing game!

ok...so i can onli recall what happened on onli friday till now...
 
Friday:
lets c...firday was the (PATHETIC) racial harmony celebration...my goodness...it sux so much...we had to stay in the hall for about 2 hrs...ok when i think about it, there were some good performances such as the play about racial harmony and the teachers dancing...but then its like...there are too many SHIT stuff that totally makes the whole performance suck ESPECIALLY the dance by the dance club!!! omg the lead dancer is the EPITOME of sluttiness!!! she should go work as a bar top dancer...and talking of dancing...the dance by the teachers...that was the most entertaining (& laughable) dance ive since ever in my 4 yrs in siglap (other then nashran in his bee suit) ...realli good dance...
i stepped out of the hall multiple times as i probrably would have heat stroke in my baju melayu...
 
then next we had to go down the hall and *try* to amused by the games and eat the pathetic food...the canteen was so fucking crowded! then its like we dont have a choice to eat cos u noe most of us havent eaten breakfast and after the heat stroke session in the hall we needed at least some water...(50 cent for a cup of water and 1 dollar for a can of soda) nothing much to mention for the rest of day...
 
Saturday:
ok...didnt study for the social studies test at all until i reached school...and even then i didnt bother studying much...just heck lah...fail this one...
so the paper was ok lah...i think ill still fail though...haha...
 
then after the SS paper the A maths students supposed to have this session with ms yong where we ask questions how to do some sums...but i didnt go...not cos i dont have questions but cos i had a badminton match with joel...i totally forgot i had a badminton match with him till it was too late so haiz...id rather go for badminton...MUAHAHAHA
 
so i went for badminton...it was a good game...then...went home...rest for awhile...then went to the NDP rehaersal with my bro and his friends and our aunt...the whole thig was actually pretty boring...
UNTIL the fireworks!!! omg...the fireowkrs this year are GREAT!!! there are some new fireworks used this yr...realli realli realli good fireworks...there were heart shaped ones and starshaped ones...my fav was a new one that when it explodes the mutli-colour flares will zoom out in an erratic and unpredictable way, like in a wavy motion...it was realli a stunning fireworks display...
 
Today:
eh...nothing much...woke and watched astro-boy...watched all the way till now its the indian movies showing on central...indian movies are pretty good...haha...
 
ok i think thats all for now...
 
PS: i havent been updating lately cos im not allowed to use the com often now...my apologies to my friends =)
 

craptastico

ok...today nothing interesting...boring...was a little sick..not my day...

yesterday...onli thing i bother to remember is taking the bus 81 to tmapines with my sec 2 friends...u noe sometimes i feel that they are like my best friends to hang out with...as in like...just hang and have fun...they rock...personally my fav sec 2 human is shaheira...shes just fun lah =)...then oh yar...i was so fucking HUNGRY!!! i couldnt take it anymore so i went to KFC and got a zinger burger...and i was like...looking for a place to eat but it was raining so cannot sit outside...i kept going in rounds looking for a seat...but then TO NO AVAIL!!! so i gave up and decided to go buy my guitar strings first...farhana oso told me to buy for her...i bought electrical guitar strings for myself and classical nylon strings for her...and u noe what...mine cost like 9 dollars but hers cost a crazy $16!!! its so stupid. then i went out and then it was like...hey there are seats outside of yamaha!!! so i sat on an empty bench and ate...and u noe what...i looked like some hungry poor beggar u...cos my shirt was untucked...my hair was in a total mess and i had a cold...so it was like...u noe that kinda beggar image lah...

then went home...nothing much lah...

ok...now the main concern i have these days is mdm gill 'detaining' my ez link card...like wtf!?!? i wont do her work ok...she can wait LONG LONG!!! even if its more hassle free to just do her work...the stubborn-ass-ness in me says no...I WONT!!! but then its like...the logic part of me realises that its a DAMNED HASSLE to take coins for buses!!! argh!!! sometimes i have no more coins and i have to go begging!!! SICKENING!!

haiz...so this case is PENDING...lol...c if i wanna do her crap work...

joel and me are going to play badminton this coming saturday...finally...actually i wanted to go play xbox leh...but nvrm...that can wait lah...hahaha

and oh yar!!! i have some tickets to the NDP parade rehearsal! im thinking who to invite...hehehe...

dull end

hmm...today theres this lame practsie exam...the prelim of the pelim u might say...well...in my opinion its total crap...i didnt want to write much for today but then i tot...ok if i fail for this eng paper, rajan is gonna say that cos im not in her class, i failed...but then the fact is, i dont need her fucking help...ill show her...

ok anyways...after i did the paper...went to whitesands with fukun, thomas and paul...actually we wanted to eat at mcdonalds but then there place was already croweded and like...more of our school mates were pouring in...so we went to the foodcourt instead...ate noodles...

after we ate i went to fukuns house...his comp got some prob again...then he was like totally losing his patience with his comp...but in the end i helped him solve the prob and so i wen home in sheer boredom...took a taxi home out of laziness and watched some one peice cartoon VCD with my bro...muahahaha...we both even now still watching cartoons =P...

then....went on the comp...blah blah blah...ill skip the crap...

so yar...practically doing nothing today...although my temptation to go play XBox is increasingly difficult to contain...tmrw i think ill go and play lah...alone...hehe

suddenly feel like playing guitar...ill be going now

zzz

ok...i watched spider man 2...its a good movie...those who havent watch try to catch it before it stops showing in cinemas! its good cos it makes us realise we all make stupid mistakes but we have to forgive and realise our wrongs...just watch lah

remedials are starting from today...argh! well i am wondering...will i still have to go to rajans lesson in remedials are can i just stay out of class...cos u noe...id actually rather stay out of class then be taught by her...shes such a pain lah...

and as of now...nothing much is on my mind...in fact im thinking more about maths then other things now...maths is more fun then it appears...theres a sense of satisfaction in each completed sum...its a satisfaction one gets when looking at his 'masterpeice' of sorts...and also im drawing better lately...images from my head are easier to pen out on paper now...there are so many actions i want to portray...esp martial arts...and ive been also thinking of imaginary fighting sequences...cos ive seen loads of martial arts and ive been thinking of the possibilities...lets just say im into daggers and arm blades as of now...bwahahaha! *violent sadist*

my guitar has been untouched...simply no mood lah...zzz...

havent played badminton in awhile...haiz!...dunno if got time anot...or rather...dunno if im ALLOWED to play next time...oh yarr...these days i have a great temptation to go arcade and play games leh!!! argh!!! must resist!!!

yeah ok i think ill go sleep now...

-.-

1 week

ok...lets c...past few days has been ok for me i guess...rajan chased me out of class though...

well ok...sarala wants me to get out of class every eng lesson...but u noe what...i dont care...in fact im glad she did that...its not like i need her help to score for my english...and even if i did need help theres always something called a ten year series guidebook...but yeah...its a blessing in disguise that she threw me out of her class...after all now i have much more time to do the work i realli need to do...

as for the rest of the teachers...they are ok i guess...ms wee is so fun! ...much better then mdm norliza...shes so uptight and boring...

then about her...hmm...today i saw her...shes still so shy...oh well...

well this is a msg to her ok...if u keep being so shy and dont dare to talk to me...then how can u expect me to keep having feelings for u...u already made me swore i wouldnt end up like that guy but then if ur behaving this way...what can i do? u cant expect me to behave like its ok rite...onli now i realise it wasnt totally that guys fault ya noe...its cos of ur behavior that he gave up on u too...but then theres one difference between him and me...im not so stupid and immature...i wont give up so easily...especially when its important to me...

u noe i think certain people always think im just some kind of useless idiot thats forgetful and lazy...well u noe what...its not that im forgetful or lazy...i just dont care about school...thats y i dont do schoolwork...i NOE theres work but then its like...y do i have to do this work...to prove that i can do it? my teachers and my fellow schoolmates can look down on me all they want

studies arent important to me...things like love and friendship i will always treasure most...studies are nothing compared to those things...

zzzzzzz

ok...school has started...started of to a bad start i must say...cos i didnt do LOTS of work and had to do all of them in one day...so im tired...now today is the 2nd day of school...so when i went home i took at nap...thankfully not much to do today...whew...

and...from now on i cant update my blog often...cos u noe...school has started...and my parents are well u noe - being parents as usual -.- ...

so i think thats all for today lah...zzzzz

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ok...its onli 3 more days till school starts...and hw is seriously becoming an issue...i havent done any Emths hw...onli dont the prelim paper for Amaths...eng still havent done any summary and compo...SS i totally fuck care...Chem is dunno wtf to do...

so....im screwed...yeap...very screwed...lol nvrm ill just do eng first >_<

ANYWAYS...ill start from yesterday...

yesterday i watched The Best Bet with fukun, rui wen and another school friend (a girl)...ok...at first i tot that movie was complete crap cos of thier oh-so IRRITATING advertisement and was actually not that looking forward toward the movie...but then from the start of the movie, it was actually quite interesting...the film explores the habit of betting on 4-D and how it can destroy lives if its taken as an obsession...at the very beginning to about half-way through the film its all laughs...then the plot turns more serious as one of the character betrays his friends for 4-D winnings...i shant say more of what happens next......but the main prob is the whole film is 98% in another chinese dilect and i had to look at the subtitles most of the time...

ok that turned out to be a movie review... >_<

and then now today...argh!...im distressing over the sickening hw!!! haiz...nvrm...nothing much happening yet cos i just woke up...

i think ill go play my guitar now -.-

schools starting...0_0 *COLD SWEAT*

ok...lets start from yesterday...
yesterday...played badminton with joel, lin bin, wilson, and kok cheong...thinking about it makes me laugh man...i was torturing lin bin like some sadistic ass...i was shouting at him 'RUN LIN BIN!!! RUUUUNNNNNNNN!!!!' then hitting the shuttle from left to rite of the court...MUAHAHAHAHA! then kok cheong oso followed suit and made him suffer even more...damn funny...and i finally played somewhat seriously...and i realli sweat a HELLUVA LOT!...my whole damn shirt was dyed darker and was FREAKIN WET...haiz...2 hrs none stop of badminton...

then later at the night...i was using computer and my dad came in and scolded me for sleeping late or wadever...then im SO sick of it...so when he left...i just wrote a note and pasted it on my door...the note read: 'When the people sleep / Victor does his labours' / In peace / *smiley face*'...yeah so i did my work on the dining table cos i had a cold and my room was FREEZING...and this morning all of them read the note...i dunno what my dad is gonna think of it...lol...wadever...

*STILL HAVENT DONE 90% MY HW!!!*