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ok im not gonna update for a looooong time...cos prelims are coming

sorry to all those who care...

before i leave...ill tpye all the stuff i wanna type

memories are sad to remember,yet nice to reminescience...y do we wish to hold on to them? cos we are part of these memories. lets keep going on with these memories, cos they hold together u and me. i love all these people, no matter how bad they are, how they treat me. deep down in my heart i would not want to hurt them. y do i behave this way? y do i sometimes wish i wouldnt be so nice? is this normal? is this a sign of weakness? all these questions when will they be answered. y am i abused by those i care for, looked down upon by an equal, not being shown any compassion when i should be. should i let this seed of hate plant itself? or should i forsake my being for another? is there realli a reward for me if i do good. then suddenly i realise im not thinking of the reward...the reawrd is recieved when i noe ive done the rite thing.

a note to all those who are unkind, narrow minded, harsh, intolerant: y are u so unwise and foolish...cant u c u make people despise u...cant u c ur friends struggle to protect ur name. think and understand ur fellow man. everthing is not about u. u are not the best. u are not the highest. so dont behave like u are or the true highest will strike u down and keep u in your place. u are just another person, not higher nor lower so y not bahave that way...

yes im feeling irritated, agitated, fustrated. but theres nothing i can do. wantin to strike yet not wanting to. then tension strains.

stop putting ur fake acts. ur not smart. ur not intelligent. ur not great. ur not high. noe ur place.

this whole entry is just a way to vent myself. so let me be. dont ask me y i typed this.

p.s.: no matter what i still love u...u noe who u are =)