Oh yar.

I remember myself saying i wanted some time away from all my coursemates. Cos im sick of them.

I hope theres nothing wrong with that, after all i think all of us need some time apart.

So i hope to spend some time away from them.

Including dota matches which honestly, i only still play for the sake of brotherhood since its becoming more of a pain rather then fun to play now for some reason.

I just want a break, where i dont have to do anything, and nothing is expected of me, and i dont have to be on time for wadever.

Chalet is still ok.

Gentiles

Since when was it regarded as wrong or unadvisable to be diligent in ones faith?

Since when has the right and proper way become the one looked down upon?!

Just like Father William said, they will make white as black and black as white, turning the values of this world upside down.

Well right now, i just pity those who look upon faith and religion like this. Dunno what is the problem.

It does not matter WHAT religion, as long as you RESPECT others and thier beliefs.

Against such people i find my tolerance wears thin sometimes, though i know i should have no contempt.

I should pray for them.

1 week

Well finally PID project 3 is over and done with and thank goodness for that.

Actually, P3 was pretty good for me. Despite my CHINA partner and the constant bodily ailments, looking back, and seeing the final outcome, it was really a good experience.

It really reminded me of FODEV, that year 1 subject. Its fun when looking back. For P1 and P2 however...those are just painful. Terribly painful.

I am glad i survived and completed this project without any regret, unlike some of my previous projects where i feel unsatisfied with the outcome.

I am content.

I also went to Amplify fridays after a 3 week absence. It was held in St. Peter & Paul. The feeling was...different this time. And not because of the venue, but rather I am sure its because of the long absence from the grace of all those peoples company. But it still felt great. Got to meet new people, and more importantly, see the same old faces.

Ill put a picture of my furniture piece (with me inside, unfortunately).


My hair is tied in the picture so please, its doesnt normally look like that =)

I dont have any better quality pictures so...ill show more of other peoples work if i have the pictures in the near future.



Oh yeah, so after my P3 deadline, I now have a pathetic 1 week break. Thankfully theres gonna be a chalet.

Then its back to school again. Damn.

Patience

Patience is a virtue.

These past weeks, my patience has been put to the test.

Some people think i have no patience.

Some people think i have much patience.

But this much i know, it has been tested multiple times recently.

A friend of mine who has little patience tells me she prays for it every week.

I have been upsetting that patience of hers without fail now and then. Unintentionally of course.

She tells me. I must be the test given to her, and she will try one more time for tolerance.

I tell her i am sure the test cannot be so easy and so short. It is a test after all. It is never easy, and it is never just ONE MORE TIME.

And so the ordeal is the same for me. Constantly my patience has been put to the limit and together with this bout of sickness im experiencing, it is just so hard to go on without losing my ideals and morals.

I have been feeling lost and the feeling of guilt from drifting so far in such a short time is just making me want to forget about everything.

Forget about school. The endless gossip. The senseless conversations. The constant unease.

Everything is just clotting up my brain and somewhere deep inside guilt is lingering and chipping away at my conscience and part of my sanity with it.

I just need...to last awhile longer.

Friday. Sept 14th 2007

as ever, its been awhile since i updated.

life has been...eventful.

but i find it ever so hard to get the details down.

as long as i experience it and i remember the events that have happened, i feel like i have no need to inform the world of my life and experiences.

this blog no longer has much of any significance to me.

but i will still try to write. TRY.

because my writing skills are going down the drain, and cos i think it helps to put down some thoughts i have. thoughts that linger but dont stay for long you know, till some weeks or months later. and then they are gone again till who knows when.



i am reaching the end of my poly life in a few months time. maybe 4 or 5 months more? it might sound like a long period of time, but anyone who schools knows that it passes by faster then we realise.

frankly i want it to end. its not that i dislike my school. i just dislike the way some things are done. and its not to do with block teaching.

seriously. my course needs more open mindedness. and im not talking about the students.



ive been really slacking from my religious duties as well. ive been away for too long, been letting myself go unchecked. the ways of the world and of the spirit are truly too different.



till next time.