Weary

something is not right within me.

though i realli do hate whining and complaining inside a blog, i realli must state it out here.



i used to go school practically everyday, just for fun, to meet my buddies in school. even though honestly nothing is planned out for the day, we still manage to have freakin loads of fun coming up with nonsense and crap. i mean c'mon. we are design people. we are screwed up in the head.



but now...realli, going to school seems like a chore.

seems like everytime they ask me if im going to school now, i just dont wanna go. admin stuff? camp appreciation?! dunno wtf tea ceremony? why do i feel like its all a big waste of time?

i want to go school to LEARN THINGS. school is a place of fun but honestly the essence is to learn and i have not been getting that at all.

probrably cos its week 1 and im ready for school but all i get is boring talks and lots of time wasted. even if my friends are there and we have fun, let me say, i somehow feel i am not having that much fun anymore. i tire of this.

its the same thing over and over. NOTHING NEW IS HAPPENING.

i want school to start.

and now PID is more seperated then ever.

though the groups are more defined now, they are more apart as well.

and as usual gossiping is rampant and unstoppable.

why do i feel like im a victim of it? i can sense it, all those small little things that make it clear. in the end its up to u to tag along the mass or be left astray.

which do u choose.