Void

recently i have begun experiencing a different kind of sorrow from that which i usually experience and embrace. (yes u read that right)

usually, the kind of sorrow i have is...when i feel somehow melancholic and sentimental, and i start thinking of all the things in my life and ponder. but not to the point of insanity or depression mind u. just some deep thinking. it does the soul some good.

but now...the kind of sorrow im feeling...

its just emptiness.

a void that cant be filled in idle or activity, it lingers and it stays and it never goes away.
it eats at the soul and it bites at my mind but nothing i do can leave it behind.
thought its not pain but i feel its weight like its pushing down upon my head.

thought im sure ive had this feeling before...it has been some time since i felt such boredom and void.

i remember, i used to have a phrase for it.

'a life without contemplation or meaning.'

but thankfully. school is starting.

meaning will come back soon.