Kamikaze

i dread school now.

thanx to block teaching.



i used to love school.

even when it was tough.

cos there was such a thing as being human and having a break witout worry.

it was fun to work hard and have that well earned break at the end of each assignment/project.

even if we had to rush like crazies at the end of each sem,

IT. WAS. FUN.



now, i live through school to be a robot, when even relaxing is stressful.

to not have a moments freedom in my life other then school projects.

and when the work haunts me every moment, even when im slacking.

is this realli the life meant for every TDS designer?



i no longer feel like i have a proper life for myself anymore.

its onli school or the bed.



me and my PID mates stay in school 12 to 14hrs a day.

i sleep 5 hrs a day. and the rest sleep just as little as me or even worse sometimes.

the work is just constantly pounding the reminder that our deadline is DREADFULLY near.

we think logically, adding up what we have to do, how long will we take.

so far, everyone ive talked to doubts they can finish everything in time.



guess its just going to be another embarrassment to the standard of our work when we show our half done jobs.

and when the marks are moderated to suit the standard of our overall batch, if EVERYONE does a shit job, everyone STILL passes.

hows thats for pathetic?