Kamikaze

i dread school now.

thanx to block teaching.



i used to love school.

even when it was tough.

cos there was such a thing as being human and having a break witout worry.

it was fun to work hard and have that well earned break at the end of each assignment/project.

even if we had to rush like crazies at the end of each sem,

IT. WAS. FUN.



now, i live through school to be a robot, when even relaxing is stressful.

to not have a moments freedom in my life other then school projects.

and when the work haunts me every moment, even when im slacking.

is this realli the life meant for every TDS designer?



i no longer feel like i have a proper life for myself anymore.

its onli school or the bed.



me and my PID mates stay in school 12 to 14hrs a day.

i sleep 5 hrs a day. and the rest sleep just as little as me or even worse sometimes.

the work is just constantly pounding the reminder that our deadline is DREADFULLY near.

we think logically, adding up what we have to do, how long will we take.

so far, everyone ive talked to doubts they can finish everything in time.



guess its just going to be another embarrassment to the standard of our work when we show our half done jobs.

and when the marks are moderated to suit the standard of our overall batch, if EVERYONE does a shit job, everyone STILL passes.

hows thats for pathetic?

sometimes i wonder if the path i chose was the correct one.



the decision to go into PID.



wonder if i can make it.

just charge!

about 1 week left. i want to state my mind of the final crit.





block teaching should not be used as an excuse for lousy work.

why waste energy talking about block teaching when we cant do anything about it.

just chiong and show our power. lets be strong!

its such a shame to our skills as designers if we cant be strong-willed. dont u think so?

for those who can still remember last fridays interim critique debrief, do any of u feel ashamed?

especially the comments from the ex-students.

its all about ur passion and will.

a lecturer said, its about 2 things. thinking skills and technical skills.

i believe hard work can make up for lack of inborn skill. and if ur not passionate enough for hardwork, then death awaits u.





whats wrong with other people being stressed? sure, people being overly stressed might affect others. but so what?

the point is NOT to let urself get stressed by external factors, especially from other stressed people.

being stress does not mean one is passionate in work, it just means one is unsure of his planning (which is pretty normal).

all we need to do is plan our future well and be flexible to changes on the go. everything should be handled calmly.





so.

lets all charge together!