Moments Before Slumber

yesterday as i was laying on my bed waiting to sleep, i typed this on my phone.

'U noe that feeling where u cant help someone u care about and it hurts being so useless? thats how i always feel around her.'

yeap. thats how i feel.

haiz.

today, went out with nurul and felicia, my 2 great galfriends from secondary school.

actually, ema was supposed to come, but u noe what. im glad ema didnt come.

yeah.

why?

cos i not as close to ema, and ema to me, is just plain damn NOISY and annoying cos of the way she thinks.

now u noe =)


so...it was fun!

esp playing the arcade with them. havent had that much fun in a long time...seriously...i forgot the joys of just having fun with a small group of friends.

u wont be left out. u wont feel out of place. ull always be part of it.

i miss that =)

they are both still the same. yeah...still the same kinda crazy gals who go crazy over stupid stuff. and probrably im still pretty the same? haha. the sarcarstic nice guy. am i rite girls?

nurul said i look older...and people, dont be mistaken. she doesnt mean im more MATURE. she just means i look more HAGGARD since sec school.

well nurul, come to design school for a semester and thats what happens eh? or maybe its just me XD

hmm...nurul...ur hair. u rebonded it. my goodness. DIFFERENT I TELL U. its a slight shock for me. but honestly...i think u look more girly now. after all, ur hair is more 'flowing' now and i like that.

the 3 of us watched 'The Brothers Grimm'

it is a SICK SHOW but damn its pretty good. its WIERD and SICK and humourous at the same time. seriously very surreal feeling about it. at least to me.

nurul and feli were scared lots of times during the movie.

ESPECIALLY FELICIA.

goodness...she got so scared she almost pressed her whole head unto my shoulder, though lots of times she was like gonna grab my arm in fear. (btw i actually wouldnt mind either of the 2 HAHAHAHA im sick)

hmm...after the movie, nurul saw some guy she has some interest in. for goodness sakes. feli and me were like getting dragged abit by nurul cos of that. she SO wanna see these 2 guys but shes totally over reacting. so feli was like 'grrr' and i was just smiling away as usual though it was abit annoying XD

and AFTER that...MORE arcade. HAHAHA

damn i got bullied in racing games by them, in particular NURUL. shes a total savage in racing games. yes people. she beat me TWICE in those racing games.

but dont get mistaken!

just cos she beat me doesnt mean shes more skillful. yes! its true! why, u ask?

because she constantly banged into me and made my car go haywire. all the while while i was trying NOT to nudge unto thier cars. damn. being a gentlemen aint worth it sometimes -.-

so after that...nurul went camera crazy and INSIST she wants photos taken. well ok...i dont mind...though feli grumble again...haha

pictures...felicia say she look terrible in the pictures. but honestly i think i look as bad? oh well. perhaps its vanity.

hmm. thats all?

back

hohoho!

im back from japan.

though this post is a tad bit late seeing as i landed in singapore yesterday at 1730hrs.

ah...japan is a great place. but still I PREFER SINGAPORE. yeap...thats rite.

japan is damned stylish and cool, the gals are flippin cute and hot, and thier shopping is INSANE.

but hell, i still prefer singapore cos singapore has the safer kinda feeling and is actually more peaceful then japan. yeah people...im a damn home boy -.-


so...i wanna thank my pals in PID who actually went to the airport to recieve those of us returning from japan.

it was weird seeing them at the other sight of the glass wall.

i was walking along and there was a group of young teens, which were definifetly very different from the rest of the crowd. there were a whole mass, together, and they were very excited.

in a split second, even witout seeing thier faces, i could tell. it was them. my course mates. they FUCKING ROCK! and i miss them to bits.

then as i got closer, they saw me too, and i got a closer look, from the left to the right of the group. i saw con first, the cherrie. and as i scanned the whole group, i saw more familier faces, like shirley, zhen hao, vanessa.

but yet as i saw them, and they saw me, and thier faces were lit with excitement, i merely smiled weakly and waved pathetically, and walked on by to take my luggage.

and i noticed, all my friends after me also did the same thing. its strange!

when i went out of the gates to see them, they told me they actually pasted a whole row of cardridge paper which they painted on to welcome to us back, but NONE of those from japan even noticed it!

but i had to go home with my dad so i didnt talk much with them. left pretty soon.

so these are some things i note when i saw them.

if my eyes do not lie, i believe cherrie is actually THINNER then she was before i left, if thats even possible.

constance did some changes to her hair. hmm...not a bad change...haha.

joy looks prettier then before...hmmmmmmmm...i think its her complexion. and i think she gotten thinner? not sure.

the rest...still looks pretty much same...haha.

i miss siti, nurul and feli. havent talked in a looooong time.

im currently in japan.

japan rox.

the girls are so KAWAII!

and yes yes...the guys are cute too -.- cant deny.

ok.

not much time to talk.

i shall speak more when i have more time.

this is the last entry till i come back from japan on the 26th.

i will miss home and singapore terribly.

even before i leave, i can feel it.

please do not contact me during from the 17th to 26th as my phone will not be with me.

ahhhh!

i miss this place already. damn. hopefully when i go there ill feel better.

till then my friends!

im flying on a jet plane.

alrite folks. im going to japan.

my secondary school friends. hah. dont be jealous. dont miss me too much. i miss u too.

my poly friends. hmm...miss me? doubt it lah. haha. maybe some?

i have onli one fear when i go japan.

that my mates will behave like monkeys and wanna have fun instead of learning stuff. wont say who after all just thinking.

so...what do i hope to achieve there?

learn lots of stuff.
have lots of fun.
meet the locals.
meet hot chicks. XD

hoho. cant help saying the last bit there.

hmm...

i had a little chat with abby.

all ill say is, i felt like a slight burden got lifted from my shoulders.

im getting pretty pathetic now. still remember how id used to handle such things.

so hmm...i wanna say

abby is a great gal. (most times)

fun, loving, and caring.
someone who cares about her friends alot.
thats what i like about her.

abby is a scary girl (some times)

temperamental, confusing, and cold.
someone whose attitude can run out of control.
thats what i dislike about her.


i wanna say abby is realli so damn freakin nice.

but when i remember some things...i wouldnt lie to myself.

but dont be fooled.

abby is still a very nice gal. (and shes pretty flippin hot to boot in my opinion)

and i hope everyone would see her as that.

i noe some people dislike her. and these people are being pretty stupid. i mean...i can see why abby can be a pain sometimes. but i dont see how anyone would wanna intentionally try to hurt her? shes nicer then she is 'unnice' XD.

ah im tired.

yeah this post says i started at 9.13PM.

but i started writing this post onli at about 1.30am

so yeah...
MINE EYES!
THEY BURNETH!
yes it is realli burning now >_<

i think this entry is a little poorly written.

Finally, now i can rest.

pass few days have been super freakin stress.

almost no sleep for a few days.

ive recovered already i guess.

but i feel pretty empty inside.

its strange being so free.

and not only that, now thats its all over, i have more time to dwell on...subjects that i find quite painful at times.

hopefully the feeling will fade off. cos i dont think theres anything i can do about it. or maybe i dont have the movitation to do so.


today i went back to school. to play basketball. but of course, took some time for that. we PID people had fun in the studio first with authentic TABLE PING PONG.

thats rite folks, u can onli find it in the PID studios cos no other studio has such cool tables and such fine-ass layout.

but i didnt play much.

why?

because truth be told, i was laying my ass in the IMD studio.

probrably because i was bored staying in the Pid studio and so decided to see who still doing work in IMD.

the only people i usually go to visit the place for are jasmine and rika. cos they are freakin amusing. total jap fanatics. of course, theres abby. but things get quiet sometimes and i dont realli like that feeling around her.

so i went to play basketball with my brethren.

all like mad people anyhow throwing balls. it was a funny sight to behold.

i merely sat there with my white umbrella i left at school opened up, to shade me from the scorching heat.

cute doreen soon joined me under the shade. well i dont blame her. it was flippin hot and she was playing with a mini skirt on and black top. not a very good combination.

then went off to play badminton. but damn! the hall fagging hall FILLED with tables and chairs for exams.

so i just went home. was pretty damn sian lah.

maybe it was all those freakin sentimental songs in my mp3 player.

as night came, that sickening sense of extreme lonliness that comes every few weeks once again came back to haunt me. damn! it gets so bad i dont noe what to do.

siti is busy. so i dont wanna disturb her.

theres no one else i would like to turn to. theres no one i feel as comfortable with. nurul comes close though. maybe ill call her.

gets me down.