Love

i went out with my secondary school buddies on friday.

the brothers of my past.



it was as per normal. but only cos its normal that we have a great time.

each time when we meet. its like a reunion.

tell each other our probs. some secrets here and there.

and lots of good old insults to top it off.



what else could compare?



each time i meet them, it only reinforces the fact that no one else i know could ever compare to them.

not the slightest bit.

its not like im putting down everyone else i know. or maybe i am.

hell, i dont really care.

cos my love for them is bigger then what i can care for others.





speaking of love.

i remember i had a chat with abby. online, some months back. say maybe 7 or 8 months back.

the thing i wanted to point out at that time was that, love can exist in all levels of relationships.

even between strangers.

lemme repeat that.

even. between. strangers.



have any of you ever smiled at a stranger, just, and only, just hoping it might brighten thier day?

or speak to a waiter or cashier with sincerity and care, not just for the sake of being polite, but just cos you want to?

i dont know if any of you have done such things, or even understand the logic behind it.

some might even think those actions are simply a waste of effort. *why care for some stranger? a nobody? a person you dont care about, with nothing to connect with*



the thing is, i used to do those things back when i was in sec school. every single day if i could, i would try.

whats the reason behind those actions?

the reason is that the people around you are humans as well.

fellow humans with feelings and emotions just as needy as yours and mine. we do need love and care, all of us. not just for YOURSELF or YOUR FRIENDS. does anyone understand me here?

EVERYONE NEEDS LOVE.

and not everyone gets it.

its quite the opposite actually.

almost no one gets the love they want. not talking about sexual relationships but on all levels.

e.g.
motherly love. fatherly love. brotherly love. sisterly love. love between friends. love for a mentor. love for the fellow human. love for animals. love for nature. anything goes when it comes to love!



apparently i dont bother loving people as much as i did back then. i love people alot less now.

the reason is because. most people dont love back.

and it gets to me. im only human and as love travels, so does INDIFFERENCE.

id say that, over time, indifference got to me. the power of indifference overpowered me for sure.

let me point out clearly that this indifference is very largely from the tertiery education school i attend.

of course, im not blaming my school. no way. *TP rox.*

and nor am i blaming the people in my school.

its only natural to be indifferent in times of insecurity.

and the time it happens is right on the first day of school.

insecurity between the people u meet and interact with.

we might find a new friend fun and interesting, but beyond that, is there anything more? things like trusting and being who you are without fear of being judged. theres the insecurity right there. its onli normal. just dont let it overtake you.



what i want to say about all of this is.

love is everywhere. never look away from it, and never ever fear it.

truth. beauty. freedom. love.

im not sure why i suddenly began to write on this topic.

but i just had the feeling, i wanted to.