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ok im not gonna update for a looooong time...cos prelims are coming

sorry to all those who care...

before i leave...ill tpye all the stuff i wanna type

memories are sad to remember,yet nice to reminescience...y do we wish to hold on to them? cos we are part of these memories. lets keep going on with these memories, cos they hold together u and me. i love all these people, no matter how bad they are, how they treat me. deep down in my heart i would not want to hurt them. y do i behave this way? y do i sometimes wish i wouldnt be so nice? is this normal? is this a sign of weakness? all these questions when will they be answered. y am i abused by those i care for, looked down upon by an equal, not being shown any compassion when i should be. should i let this seed of hate plant itself? or should i forsake my being for another? is there realli a reward for me if i do good. then suddenly i realise im not thinking of the reward...the reawrd is recieved when i noe ive done the rite thing.

a note to all those who are unkind, narrow minded, harsh, intolerant: y are u so unwise and foolish...cant u c u make people despise u...cant u c ur friends struggle to protect ur name. think and understand ur fellow man. everthing is not about u. u are not the best. u are not the highest. so dont behave like u are or the true highest will strike u down and keep u in your place. u are just another person, not higher nor lower so y not bahave that way...

yes im feeling irritated, agitated, fustrated. but theres nothing i can do. wantin to strike yet not wanting to. then tension strains.

stop putting ur fake acts. ur not smart. ur not intelligent. ur not great. ur not high. noe ur place.

this whole entry is just a way to vent myself. so let me be. dont ask me y i typed this.

p.s.: no matter what i still love u...u noe who u are =)

out loving

out loving

ok...today, i went out with my gf to watch a movie, twins effect 2. how about i write a review?

alriiiite...twins effect 2 on the whole is not that bad...its about this polite and nice guy who, while appears to be some lowly peasent guy, is in actual fact a KING. and what the hell even his sword is named Excaliber(cough*RIP-OFF*cough)...and basically he is the one who frees the kingdom from oppresion...go find the rest of the story by urself...bahahaha...theres lots of fighting and quite alot of romance going on as well...though the love between the characters is always 'assisted' by these unexpected events...for me, the moral of the movie is that love is nvr a straight path, its the twists and turns that make love that way it is...or maybe im just wierd? meh...i give it a 3 out of 5...

anyways...before i saw the movie, i met siti and gang + charles and j.lo and the 2 "via's" (silVIA and erVIA) and sharon (who else i missed out i dont care) at the tampinese mrt control station...well the moment i saw them i went over to say hi of course...then what the hell!!! siti was like...'hey victor where u going huh? going on a date izzit? with whooooooo???'...so i replied 'errr...just a friend!!!'...which was of course rebuted by not onli siti but like 3 other voices? argh!!! gossip queens they are!!!

so i just said bye to them cos they were going to board the train to wherever...and the moment i turned around to continue my wait for her she was rite there behind me! she had in fact saw me appraoching siti and gang and had stayed away from view for awhile...thank goodness she did that or who noes what those gossip queens would have said!!! she was wearing a black dress (kinda) and she looked great...

so yar...we went and sat somewhere, passed the time, then went to c the movie...

after the movie, we walked around and found a place to sit, then we talked for 2 hrs from 3.30pm to 5.30pm...just talked and talked about stuff...then she had to leave...oh well...had a great time with her...yeah!

when she left i went to west plaza and played Halo on Xbox...greatest shooting game ive played yet though i think Doom 3 should be better now...

then ivan asked me if i wanted to watch Alien vs. Predator with him and joel...and as much as i wanted to watch i COULDNT...its my parents lah...so particular about going out...haiz!!! i think ill go watch the movie alone next saturday for fun...

oh btw...physics today was difficult...i think 1/2 the class will fail...kudos to the class! and im surely on of the failures...damned

p.s.: i have a bad feeling im gonna flunk my prelims...urgh!!!

orals...

orals...

ok...today i did my orals...woah i was realli nervous before the orals...but then...wtf...we guys who were taking the orals had to wait SO FREAKIN LONG for each person that by the time it was my turn, i was too bored to be nervous anymore...and the examiners took such a long time for each person that apart from the one talking to the examiners, there were 2 people still in the waiting list, and 1 more just starting to c the oral picture...

so finally, after a long time, i was called upon by the examiners, who were 2 ladies in thier 20's...they were quite friendly and onli one of them talked (she had a british accent).

and so i started...and ended...

the whole thing was OK i guess...did 3 minor mistakes for the reading, and i dont think i read that clearly...haiz...for the picture, i at first describe lots of stuff and explained by tots to them...i said quite alot....until i an out of ideas...and ended up saying 'umm...uhhhh....errrr'...so of course, the lady asked me stuff...she asked me about 3 questions for the picture...in which is said more stuff for each...then came to conversation...i dare say the conversation went pretty well...of the 3 parts the conversation was the easiest for me...just relax and speak your mind...nothing is wrong as long as its not out of point...

then, after the whole oral thing, went to jerreme's b.day thing...its was pathetic lah actually...me going there just made jerreme look bad cos he was like onli despo to go with gals and he was so lame while i was reprimanding his behavior to gals...and chu hue seemed to be like looking down on him...then even make fun of him say when it was HER b.day she treated all her friends...so it was like a super hint saying he is a pathetic ass...bahahahaha!

then i was like...non-stop making the gals laugh...sharon was surprisingly laughing quite alot towards the jokes...anyways we waited for sarah and then went to pastamania to eat pasta (duh)...jerreme sat oppostie sarah and i sat opposite sharon. chu was was sitting at sharons side...i ate tuna and bacon pasta...it was delish...though i ate too fast...cos it was like...sharon and me had to bend down to eat our pasta so it wouldnt go all over the place, and it was like...pretty awkward/wierd? hard to explain lah...then after i ate finished i faced jerreme and told him 'i ate too fast...but i was feeling uneasy so i wanted to finish quick'...

well after those words i turned back and sharon tilted her head down and smiled meekly to herself (as in the type of smile where a gal smiles with lips closed in a shy manner)!!! i was shocked to c her in that kind of 'shy' expression...cos she must have also felta little uneasy...hahahahah! so it was fun cos of the gals...esp sharon, but no i dont have feelings for her ok...lol...i am a loyal lover...hehehe

p.s.: I HAVEEE TOOOO STUDDDDYYYYYYYYYYY!!! I AM TOTALLY LAGGING!!!!
p.p.s.: always thinking of my dear gf...*sheepish smile*

i am feeling to heat...

i am feeling the heat...

ok...today was the release of the O lvl results for mother tongue...and well, some people cried, some of them my good friends...

most people didnt cry cos they got bad results, most people cried cos they got OK results but still NOT-SO-OK to them cos they want higher grades...
but thennnn fortunately for me and ivan, we didnt need to feel nervous/anxious/scared cos we both take chinese syllabus 'B' (easier chinese for u young/stupid people...)

so basically i was like...prtty heck care about the results cos u noe...IM not getting them...y should I care...(u noe what i mean rite people?)

but it wasnt until i tot about how close the orals are that i got worried...its like...what if i screw up my orals...then isnt the wasted FOREVER? what if i screw up my maths, and sci? am i gonna end up crying too?

so now...im a littttle worried...maybe time to start studying huh...

uh...anyways i played badminton with joel as usual today...and i pretty much SUCKED!!! ergh!!! today is totally not good...i dunno y!!! keep missing, keep hitting out...dunno if its cos of this stiff neck (which is freakin pain actually) or cos im just plain tired?

aahhh...nvrm...

p.s.: anyone willing to study maths after school? totally need to revise...

AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

so uh...I AM NOT OBSESSED WITH BREASTS!!! >_<

so who believes me? (i am doubtful considering my 'friends'...urgh...)

p.s.: anyone? lol...

boredom ensues...

boredom ensues...

y do the holidays have to end so soon...its not enough...haiz...

well today is singapores national day...the day when malaysians are jealous of our parade, the day when $100k is blown on fireworks, the day when when freakin elite marchers stut thier stuff and the day when overplayed national songs are sung over, and over, and over...

*as per norm*

so nothing much happened today...my body is aching from going to the gym yesterday...tmrw i have A maths classes...9 to 12...wtf? y is my class so SLOW!!! argh!!! cant we go faster...i wish we could but apparently some people dont intake stuff fast enough...haiz! but A.maths is pretty fun now cos i can understand and do stuff (AT LAST).

and um...i feel theres more to say...but then...theres oso nothing left to be said...i am not sure y...

oh btw ive had this nick in my msn for awhile...i found it particularly interesting...
'your pain is my pleasure, so come...BLEED FOR ME!!!'
lol...yes it sounds sick no doubt but i like it...

p.s.: breasts are baby feeders! not sex toys! >_<

ndp EH!

ndp Eh!

ok! so lets c...today was the school celebration of national day! i tot it would pretty much suck but hey actually it was pretty good!

ok first is the as-per-norm marching routine...and after that is the cheerleading...ok although the cheerleading wasnt particularly good but dang there was a certain chinese gal...and since the cheerleaders were wearing PARTICULARLY tight shirts *v-neck to be precise* , i simply could not help but look at the CURVATURES of that chinese girl! yes people...i noe i sound like a damned pervert but u noe IM A GUY!!! SPARE ME!!! ITS IN MY BLOOD! so yeah...teH HOTZ0RZ! (or otherwise...DAMNED HOT!)

then later we went to the hall, watched the performance. u noe what this yrs performance was pretty good u noe...yeah...esp the dancing! (no thanx to charmaine though. slut factor UP!) mr tharmen and the malay guys were very entertaining indeed. then there was the 'most innovative way to wear ur skarf' competition...well what the hell...there was this guy wearing it covering his face and head like some terrorist...and he introduced himself and OSAMA BIN LADEN. well done man...funniest shit yet...esp when he stabbed mr tharmen with a pen...damned funny!

then ok i think thats all...went to ying hui house...and dammit HE READ THE MSGS CONCERNING ME AND THAT GIRL!!! >_<

and ok...i had this problem about xixiang, to so called 'officiate' that we no longer like each other...people who nvr experience this wont noe what i mean lah. so anyways, i had this prob of telling her cos u noe its pretty awkward...but joel told me that she wrote in her blog that SHE LIKES ANOTHER GUY! so i was like...YES! WOO HOO! GREAT! hahaha! now i dont have to deal with her anymore! yeah...!

so yar...basically thats it...still so loving that certain girl...hahaha! she is so gorgeous/cute/pretty in my eyes...shes hot...hahaha okok i wont talk nonsense! >_<

p.s.: nurul and feli, if u still wanna noe who she is i might be more willin to tell u now...hehehe i dunno just feel more open about it