Sweet Alias Death

Alias.

not the tv show.

im talking about the computer company that deals out software for professional commercial use on the computer *duh*.

ill be refering to a specific software of thiers named StudioTools (which if im not wrong, they bought over from another company). its used to make 3d models with very realistic effects. ever seen those ipod advertisements? or nokia handphone models? all done by Alias StudioTools.

the thing is, its starting to piss me off.

why.

1. Because the software can hang on u at any given moment, regardless of logical factors.

2. Because there is onli 28 or so licenses that the WHOLE *BLEEPIN* DESIGN SCHOOL can use at ANY given time or computer lab. thus, if 28 people are using the software already, no more then that will be able to use it.

3. about 70 to 80 PID 2nd years are using it NONSTOP during school hours to finish thier project. 70 to 80 people. remember reason 2.? 28 licenses?

4. since the license is so limited, people 'book' the licenses - first come first serve - and use it for DAYS ON END witout ever, ever unlocking the comp for others. i have seen the same comp locked by some people for a week already. this makes it all the more fustrating as the licenses used are LOCKED by others inside thier comps even when they are away or not using.

5. for those who dont noe, when u 'render' the model to make to make it look realistic, each time, it takes about 1 to 2hrs or so (some even 4hrs). and many, MANY times, the rendering is not what u want it to look like. this makes for an immense waste of time and productivity WAITING for the rendering to be done.

6. we onli have 1 week due to submission each time. thats onli assuming u dont take any breaks. and we have to print out the finished image on a board, and do a journal that explains the steps 1 by 1, with pictures of the steps given. this means a printscreen image every step of the way. it bloody pisses me off.

yes.

people can get in quarrels because of the tension.

the reason for this is, everyone else is DEFINITELY your competition in this.

if it wasnt obvious before, now its worse because this time, whoever BOOKS the comp first finishes the work. and since EVERYBODY is locking thier comps, no one gets to use it other then the BOOKERS. 28 people at any given time. 70 to 80 people in need of it desperately.

that leaves 48 to 58 PID year 2's desperatly trying to finish thier work but not being able to.

so what do they do?

some resort to begging those who have license.

some resort to restarting locked computers.

some just wait till a user leaves and asks if they can use. mind u, this waiting can take HOURS.

wadever it is, it is terrible and there is alot of stress and tension in the already cold air of the computer lab.

and buying more licenses has apparently been refused.

buying more licenses would resolve it but it seems thats not going to happen.

Battle Royale anyone?

Angel Redemption

another thing.

ive started doing a personal project of my own.

its related to a request my friend ivan gave me.

the title i give it is Angel Redemption.

itll probraby be done by end of august if i have no time thanx to my school projects.

ill keep the subject updated.

Ex.

though i didnt do much today, it still turned out quite eventful.

so for the first time in a long time, ill write this entry like a story about my day. (it will be a fucking. long. entry)

today is monday. i awoke at 7am to the sound of the home phone ringing away. though i can remember it rang for onli 3 times max, it still pissed the hell outta me. being too damned tired to give a fuck, i just kept my yes closed and hope, HOPED it would stop soon. and it did. my mom was awake at the time, probrably thanx to the ringing as well, and she ended my torment quick. mother noes best i say.

so since the sound ended, i continued sleeping. till say 10am.

i was supposed to awake at 8.30am. but i was seriously just so tired. u noe what i mean right? so tired till u cant freakin bear to get up, the most ull just look at the time and groan in silence in ur bed, half awake. yeah, THAT kind of tired.

but in the end i did it. cos i knew i had work to do. and places to go.

for u see, today, i was going to buy a book.

its a book that has lots of pretty pictures, and im not not talking about FHM or Maxim. its a sort of graphic illustration book by Imaginary Friends Studios.

but i had to take a long bus ride to East Coast Road just to buy it. damn! the bus ride took me about 50 min. and i still had to go school and do my shit project (fucking automata). but i wanted to get the book asap so i didnt have to make the trip when my work was even more piled up.

so anyways, when i got to the location (which took abit of time mind u), i saw that the studio was in a rather hard to find and reach place. i was told to call when i was approaching the studio by the supposed secretary when i made the appointment. but the number kept dialing at busy, so i decided to just go on ahead. it was on the 2nd level of one of those revamped chinese shop houses. and the studio, which was freakin quiet, allowed no shoes in. it was abit uncomfortable as i felt like a total intruder. but damn..the digital artists skills are amazing. fantastic. i hope to reach thier standard one day.

but nvrm about all that! all that didnt give me much of an impact. except for 1 thing.

the supposed secretary, Rita. shes chinese. what a unique name eh?

the thing is, okok...i found her rather cute. shes the shy and demure type, and shes working around all these guys and its just freakin quiet. it was like just me, and her, who were looking at each other, and a bunch of guys drawing. it was kinda awkward cos i couldnt even talk witout feeling like everone could hear us. but the way she looked at me...maybe its just my imagination or something but she stared it me with curiousity. must be something wrong with my face eh. so after i bought the book i just left. as i walked off and couldnt help thinking shes a pretty cute girl. heh.

then i had to take the same freakin bus all the way back to where i came from, Pasir Ris. another freakin 50min WASTED! dammit! by the time i took bus 15 from pasir ris interchange and reached school, i was 2pm. i was planning to reach school by 12 or 1. gah.

so i did my work, which was pitiful cos i had no material to do much of anything. i pretty much used my time planning what to do and how to do it, with just abit of real work done.

before i knew it, the workshop was time to close. 5.30pm.

nothing much happened then. went home at 7pm+.

now heres another thing that was pretty eventful though its pretty much nothing as well.

while waiting for my bus, i saw Vanessa.

not the PID one...and not my secondary school mate either.

onli a few of my friends noe who she is. she used to be someone important to me. well anyways, i hadnt seen her for a long, long time and i was onli yesterday beginning to wonder how she was doing.

who knew i would coincidentally meet her. it was quite a pleasent surprise but when i said hi to her i somehow sounded...bored. i guess i didnt realli have the mood cos of how tired i was. after 3 more lines exchanged and i just said bye next thing and she was gone. just like that.

so i just looked at her walk off and i sat down. i started thinking.

damn...i should have gone and walked with her to catch up on how shes doing...i kinda regreted just saying bye like that. but she was gone so i just let it go.

i hope we meet again.

well ok time to go.

till next time (and after all this fucking crap projects are done)

i am getting fucking sick of all this.

All I Have To Do

all i have to do.

is go with the flow.

just step back and let it go.

to stop the moment and take it in.

and walk forward and just keep going.



all i have to do.

is take it easy.

just to be happy.

to love and be loved.

and know when to let go.



all i have to do.

is to take things easy.

just to not think too much.

to have less worries.

and live a full life.



a simple life to all ends.