w6-9

i wonder when we will meet again.



i never complained about block teaching. but if i have a reason to...this would be it...

how come PID yr 2's 1st block ends later then others?

the school will be alot emptier and quieter...probrably to the extent where i think...its going to get lonely.

im drifting further and further away from my PID junior mates. maybe im just getting tired of it all...

and now for the next few weeks they will be my only company again.

just gotta live it.

Im Playing

so, my wise ass friend Benson (of PID) told me a saying.

'Whoever cant afford to lose, shouldnt play.'
-Benson Lee

well said Benson.

i totally and utterly agree.



so.

can u afford to play?

Used To Ponder

Used to Ponder

whatever happened to the days of old,
when my thoughts were as clear as gold.

when i would sit and think in clarity
of everything i could behold.

where it used to flow and so
now it only slows and no.

the sword is blunted and it is ebbing
not knowing to edge is where im falling.

hopefully ill learn again in time
what it means to be enlight.

but until then
ill have to sit tight.

-Victor Goh



i barely reflect on anything these weeks past.

and so my mind is detoriating.

11/05

so the words been going around that block teaching is not going well for students.

all i can say is, i pity the freshmen.

something has changed.

im no longer feeling so empty or bored or everything.



she is just so nice. mmm

Maybe

maybe...its not the person i miss.

but rather...its merely the feeling that i miss.

maybe it has nothing to do with the existance of any particular human but its just that so happens, fate has thrown me the chance to meet that certain individual.

"so it could have been anyone, as long as i could have the chance to feel the way i did before?"

just...maybe.

"so i might just miss the feeling. and not the person. and im using that person to somehow hope i can get that feeling once again?"

maybe thats the truth?

after all, theres no point lying to oneself

Mystery

even though its just a goodbye in the cyber world, why do i still feel a sense of sadness?

i want to say i miss but then...i realise i do not noe exactly what i miss.

i barely know her, what could i possibly miss?!

(i guess...i just miss having someone there for me)

im over the initial attraction but i dont think im over it all.

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO FEEL AT ALL


but.

hope seems to linger and i am just going with the flow.

ill wait and see how this saga unfolds.