Emotions
after a long time away from this blog, i finally wanna update it again.
the reason im updating now is because, these few days, i feel so overcome by my emotions. like, i will feel sad for things that dont realli concern me, i will help people even though its out of my way. i just feel like i want to love everyone i can! just...to be a TRUE friend when someone needs it.
after all this time, during these holidays...is it because of time away from school? or is it just me? i dunno...but i do noe now, the importance and value of your companians...
i went to school today for the CNY performance.
ill skip the shit in the morning. i didnt watch the performance in the hall. but what i did c, was my juniors, the main reason y i still love the school.
i dunno how to say it. these juniors are just...so damn freakin important to me. its not like i NEED them or DEPEND on them. i just REALLI LOVE THEM. i feel so attached to them. to the point like i want thier recognition? i dunno. i feel like of all my friends, i like my juniors in school the most...even though in truth my group of 'brothers' have far more value and we are more bonded, we guys are still, in essence, GUYS. the love we share is more the rough and gruff kind.
its hard to explain, but perhaps, some people may understand what i mean.
anyways, later after the performance, i went with kun, yh, paul, andy, jy, khadijah and sharon to whitesands. we ate canadian pizza. we even gambled after the food! now i think of it, thank goodness no police came or else that would have been trouble.
later, we went to orchard, without kun and paul. i have nothing much to say here. but what i did notice was that, jerreme realli hasnt changed. he claims he has changed, but in truth, it is onli in the minimal. he is still the childish fem-obsessed moron i noe though slightly more 'controlled'. lol kkk.
another thing i noticed was, now sharon was so much more...'loose' then before. she was no longer serious and stiff. she could joke around and have fun so much better then before. it was then that i realised, she was indeed, a beautiful gal. i nvr tot that, even when many said she was pretty last yr. i had tot she had changed, becoming more 'beautiful' then before, but now i noe it was simply me. the mental liking of a person does indeed play a big part in things.
p.s.: i need someone to talk to and share my tots with!!! girls truly are more gentle...
